My current feelings
|What are these feelings?
Lately it seems as though the whole world has gone crazy. No matter where you look or where you turn, there is chaos and confusion. Everyone is panicing because of what is going on around us. Everything was shut down and things are finally starting to reopen. They say progress is being made but truthfully i dont see it. It doesnt feel like anything is being done at all, let alone progress being made. It seems like just when things are finally starting to look up, bam something else comes along and stops you in your tracks. Financial, health, personal, etc. Things are so up in the air right now people dont know where to turn. For someone like me, its really hard. My mind has been driving me really nuts lately. I try my best to think positive and stay positive but its hard. My mind is always going a million miles a minute it seems like. It feels like it never stops. I get so down out of nowhere that i cant explain it. And there have been times where i have felt lonely, even though i know its not the case. There are so many things that i want to start to do. I want to finally start my life with my fiance and just feel like i am getting somewhere. Right now i feel like i am stuck and cant do what i need to do. I used to be such a people person, now during all this shopping has become a real chore for me. I just want things to be ok again. I just want to be ok again in genereal. This has really taken a toll on me. But on the positive side i have people who love me and who want the best for me, and i am so very thankful for them.