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Shadows and Light Contest - An August 2021 Bonus Assignment for the "Rising Stars" class.

Discouraged by my run-around;
it happened during my done-around.
Doors that have opened
have now been closed.
Being zapped of my strength,
I decided to take a nap.
No matter how hard I tried,
I was denied any possibility of advancement.

Deprived of what I was striving for,
my vision was no longer there.
With so much heartache and so much pain,
the days passed by with much depression.
I began to regress
because of the stress.
Too many voices that I acknowledged,
when I tried to go to college.

Instead of medication,
which made me feel tired,
I needed support when I felt down.
Being busy didn't help;
the stigma of my illness made it worse.
I feared success and I feared failure;
the phases of my life,
where rejection was the norm.

Discouraged by my run-around,
I hit rock bottom without doing drugs.
Due to a husband who smoked in the house,
I stiffened up; I could hardly move;
He was also an alcoholic and a drug user.
I could've taken the easy way out,
but that's not what I am about;
I talked to Jesus; He brought me through it.

Without Jesus, I could not have done it;
He was the strength that I needed.
Knowing that he loved matter what,
gave me the courage to go on.
I was truly blessed with a miracle.
When I get up in the morning,
and when I go to bed, I thank Him.
He's my healer and my friend.

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Written by Anna Marie Carlson
Sunday, August 8, 2021

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