Loner

just a brief moment inside my mind

These are the days I'm demotivated
Where the thoughts in my head are escalated
When I'm alone things are under control
When I'm alone I can turn off the world
I want to escape but I can't lose my mind
As I try to live a conventional life

Sometimes I need to be a loner
I'm happy being a loner
I'm on the edge and I want to give up
I feel like everything is too much

No one understands why I like being alone
They want me to be always accessible
Emotionally I'm on the edge of knife
Because that's how I learned to survive

If I'm alone then they'll never find
The truth about me
That I'm losing my mind
And it's too hard to pretend
So I stay away from my friends

I pick up on everybody's energy
I used to think something was really
Wrong with me
Life is overwhelming and
I need to breathe
Everything is too much too much
That's why I'm happy being a loner