Girl Bye, Go Home & Sleep

Never thought someone as close as a sister would turn around and do that...never again.

Never thought I'd be betrayed like this before
I had to leave
Whilst I didn't plan or intend to leave her behind
She never followed after me

I thought she was my friend,
I gave her the benefit of the doubts
and trusted her like a sister
When I invited her back with me
She chose to say no thanks
and said we, as she demonstrated how she became a part of they
When I asked if she made it home ok
She says she stayed and went out
With the two people
I initiated acquaintanceships with
who kept being rude to me
One of whom was interrupting my question at the table
To announce how she was ready to leave and go home
Indicating that she didn't want to hear what I was talking about
To which the other replied, girl, it's no drama, chill
As she also was continuously interrupting whilst I began to get to the point
To tell me that I need to talk to the man personally about my thoughts and feelings
That she acknowledged
She already got to share her side of the story
Which she continued to tell once again
As she interrupted my next attempt
and the other one exlaims now that she
"doesn't want to hear it"
while she continues
To share her thoughts and feelings about everything
for the rest of the table


Kept interrupting me to not let me share my opinions and feelings and questions
Only to say I need to talk to the man about it
As she never let me finish speaking for her to even know what the fuck I was getting to.

I was trying to build a circle of friends
Bring new people together in a new place where we could spend time
and learn to trust again
But no one wants to hear my whole sentence
I am deaf
So I listen to understand
But I listen with my eyes
And these eyes realized what was happening to me


No one was letting me finish my question or thoughts
SO-

I stood up, and exclaimed
"I feel REALLY UNCOMFORTABLE
I'm leaving.
BYE".


And I left the 3 of them sitting there
Without the drama of this D, me, solely

I texted my friend when I got around the corner
I am sorry I cannot be around people who keep cutting me off
Who don't want to hear what I have to say
are completely rude and making me uncomfortable
I can't
I invited her to come back with me
To which she replied,
"I think I'm good, we're all uncomfortable"
Yep
"Yea"
So you went home?
"No, I'm not home, I'm still out"
Where? I would meet you, just not with either of them
"Yea Dani, but I'm with them though..."

Have fun, get home safe, bye


I then followed up with my emotional reply of

I see how it is...peace.
Like a big fuck you

To which she replied:
I don't think you ready for this yet boi!!

You ready?
You ain't ready
You ain't ready
You ain't ready fa dis yet boi!

"Girl bye, go home and sleep"

Who you talking to???
Not my friend
You have fun
With your friends

"That wasn't me"

"That wasn't me"

You chose your direction. Bye.

"ok dani"

You chose to go with them. Actions speak louder than words.

"ok dani, smh"

Next Day:
"hey, I don't know all that transpired but, that message wasn't what I wrote"


So she winds up staying with them
To go out with the one who apparently wanted to go home
But she was obviously not about going home that night
She just didn't want me to be there
The three of them stay out partying
I was the magnet that brought us all together
She was the wedge
Other she was rude and interrupting unapologetically

and my alleged friend is here trying to tell me
That message wasn't her...
and that what I was talking to them about
had nothing to do with any of them
when it really just had nothing
to do
with her

She was the only one not there to understand what I was attempting to have a conversation about
She also just showed me her true colors and what she cared about
Her own image, fun, and ego

It was more about her going out to have a good time
Than about spending quality time with me
Whether we went out or not, I was still there for her


At the end of the day and night, I bring people together
Just to get outcasted
Leading me to choose solitude.
People have no accountability to how when they don't listen to understand, it's rude.

I've seen things like this on tv
but I never thought I'd be betrayed like this before
Never thought it would happen like this, to me.

Listen, audience, I don't know about you
But as an adult, I can honestly even say I've never dealt with this high school bullshit
Whatchu you think of all this?

So what is she implying??

That someone else took her phone
read my messages
and wrote back for her

Now she sitting there telling these other two
How she tried telling this bitch about
Who knows what
It's all Here'say at this point
But really,
What did she say?
Calling me a bitch
and making agreements with two other women
who had NO respect for me
Right in front of her

Wow, I think to myself
Just when I thought I could begin to let my guard down with someone
She and shit backfired

I don't have room in my life for people who are not going to be able to honestly speak for themselves
It just hurts because I have been telling my supposed friend this weeks before the drama happened
And this is what she did.

Girl bye, go home and sleep

I leave these people who were out flat interrupting me
and not letting me finish my sentence
Then my supposed friend go and say
I tried to tell this bitch about that before
What's funny is she don't even know the story behind what I was trying to achieve
She went with whatever the other parties said
Treated me like our friendship was actually dead
I've never been hurt or betrayed like so.

What I am supposed to believe
I ain't in high school and this isn't something I have ever had to deal with
My friends over the years have been loyal, honest, and compassionate
Receiving those messages made me feel all of just the opposite.

Girl
Imma go bye, and go to sleep.
Good thing my thrive survived the last dive
my motivation took
Otherwise
I wouldn't open my shocked eyes
Because you demonstrated to me and my guy
That you are not my friend,
you rude, then lie.
So, I would have been more inclined to suicide
If I left in your trust, my life.
Better to let this shit die
Than to be eaten, spit out, and left to cry,
While wondering why.
After being BLIND SIGHTedly
Blindsided
by someone
I thought
I was tight with.

Girl, go bye and go to sleep.




(1st draft- it definitely still needs work and I am open to suggestions)