Never Stop Trying

Late night feelings of continuing hurt

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Never Stop Trying:

The pain and the tears,
they just won't go away,
no matter what I try,
what I do or what I say.

I sit there and think
of all the past fears,
the way that you hurt me
for so many years.

Why did I let you
control me so much,
that even now, absurdly,
I still long for your touch?

I fought and I fought
so hard to break away.
Yet these haunting memories
of you stay and they stay.

I try my hardest
to block it all out,
but it's the good times
that I end up thinking about.

Despite the good times,
there were alot more bad.
I spent most of those years
crying and sad.

What will it take
for me to move on with my life,
to be happy and healthy
and get past all this strife?

So yet another night passes,
where I'm alone hurt and crying,
but I swear to my Goddess
I will never stop trying.

16 Feb 2005 3:15am