Put Myself First

A declaration of my determination to put my healing first.

**I would appreciate any feedback regarding grammar use and capitalization that is needed**

Putting Myself First:

Here I go again
turning on the tears,
remembering the pain
and all of the fears.
It hurts so bad
and I feel so sad.
Why have I felt this way
all through the years?

It comes and and it goes
and then it comes again.
I try to hide it,
but I can no longer pretend.
The pain and the tears,
the hurts and the fears...
I must shed this mask
and stop trying not to offend.

I must think of me
and put myself first,
deal with the easy
and then with the worst.
I must try not to cry
and give my best try.
If I don't do this now,
I am going to burst!

2 April 2004