| This new despair I hold Spreads ever blacker feelings No; not the pains of old This drains my very being So used to sadness now It seems there'd be no difference For even though I'm always down This feels more like a sickness No words to share this hurt No songs to vent it's fury So alone in my own world While those who love me lay in worry Because my empathic gift The one that made me special Now in dire defeat has left And I'm an empty vessel This detachment not the way for me I should be driven by my passions My soul has always soared so free But now that soul is ashes Though the world owes me nothing I beg whatever forces there may be End this numbness light the black And let my pains return to me |