To dear brother

though we're not related by blood, you'll always be my brother, so how about catching up?

Dear brother,

It's been a while, how is it going?
Last time i was on social media wasn't that long ago, and back then you were at the center of some startup stuff and all, going from hotel to hotel. knowing you that's already a good sign but also knowing you: did the formalities start annoying you already? perhaps not. maybe you got used to them, who knows.
Despite us being almost polar opposites i can still tell if a situation is giving you the cringe or not, just like you were able to tell when i'm holding myself from hitting my head on a wall when a teacher was making the class too much of a hassle to handle. so when i saw that photo in which you were wearing a tie, i just KNEW that deep down you wanted to choke someone with it rather than wearing it. and i know that is no assumption, that's a fact.
Still, i hope you're good. if not, then may things get better.
Though you also know that i'm not the kind to drop by just to say "hi". there's always a purpose when i'm talking to someone. perhaps that's one reason i 've been talking to almost no one in the last 2 years...i just did not see any purpose.
So, what's the reason of me wanting to talk to you now? well...where do i even start?
Lately i've been bouncing from one "tough" situation to another. of course, none come even close to the brutalities you know about me from 2 decades ago. and yet, these situations were confusing for me to handle. why do i have to be the ONLY bearer of sad news? and sad is an understatement by the way. and why do i concern myself with the well-being of others who barely have no interest in mine?
Is it kindness? stupidity? a mix of both? or is it something else? can you tell me? you've known me long enough after all, and i barely changed since then.
I thought i was writing this so that i may feel heard, especially by someone who understands me well, but now looking at it this might just be venting out. and perhaps we both know how this is going to end: i'll probably be sleeping longer than usual and just wake up like nothing happened, as usual. so i guess nothing hurts with complaining a bit if the ending is peaceful regardless, right?
Anyway, these situations made me even ask more: how is it going there with you? from what i heard we both suffered the same exact problem in our first year in university, that alone is crazy to think about.
Maybe you're here and you might end up reading this, and maybe not. though what stops me from sending it directly to you is the fact that i still have more things to deal with at the moment.
Perhaps i'll be seeing you soon, for now let this letter be just a simple breather, one i think i needed since long.
Until then.
yours truly, your brother.