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This is my blog about random thoughts and writing. |
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Created: October 11th, 2005 at 6:49am
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This blog is about my current life, struggling with bipolar disorder, also random everyday thoughts and trying to work through writer's block.
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| I'm feeling better. I'vebeen writingalot. My medicince makes me type funny. I sent out poems yesterday. I still have terrible insomina despitethe medication. |
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| I got out of a mental hospital today for lack of sleep (bipolar depression) and and abuse. I also went to a carnival. I can't live at home anymore. It's too depressing and there's problems i won't discuss here. |
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| I wasn't able to write for the longest time because I was never alone or had time to myself. But lately I'vebeen able to write more prose and nonfiction stuff than what I always wrote-poetry. They changed my medicine because I was getting manic or more so a mixed episode. The new medicine kind of deadens me. It sedates me so much, but after all the craziness and disorganization of mania it felt better than that. Lateley I've been able to write more about my past, something I havn't been able to do in forever. I realize more than ever that I need to write anything I can in orderto get better. Years of being in the mental health sytem has never helped me more than what insight and release I can get out of just writing it out of me. |
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| So far in my class I'm doing alright but I worry so much because of the time I missed out shcool hurting me. I always feel like I have to do more. My ex still calls. I talked to him once in the past 2 months and even that was a mistake. Except for the fact he left alone for a little while afterwards. He keeps calling and I don't know why - it's been terrible and over for a long time. I've been starting to write poems again which is good. I wrote 2 poems that desperatlely need to be revised a lot. I'm going to try to write some essays. My biggest hinderance from writing freely is I have no personal space alone at home. I have to write outside of there and when I can. Did I mention I hate where I live? |
February 15, 2009 at 11:22pm
February 15, 2009 at 11:22pm
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| I've started another Julia Cameron book- Walking In This World. And I've actually started walking. I'm taking a psych class that's a requiremnet for my Enlish degree. So far everything's okay. I've been kind of more depressed in the last two weeks. Everything just seems to move so slow. But Idon't see my therapist as much now, at least for now. |
February 9, 2009 at 10:59pm
February 9, 2009 at 10:59pm
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| Its been months since Iv writtin in here. So much has changed. I sttill live in my grandmothers (my parents, brother and aunt's') house. My grandmother died which I will nver be over that. She practicalyy raised me. Since then I realized I need to get better in my life and do what I have to do. I will have nothing to do with my exboyfriend no matter how many threatening calls he makes here. I'd never go back to him after all he's done to me the past 8 years. Ususally I'm doing ok and writing in my journal everyday and doing writing practices .When I was rreading the vein of gold started to write some nonfiction. I wrote a poem last week that suprised my because it just came out of nowhere.Life can get really bad but I allways get by. |
October 18, 2008 at 5:10pm
October 18, 2008 at 5:10pm
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| I havn't been writing alot,nor journalling as much lately. I've been depressed and having allsorts of problems. I moved out of my apartment and now Im waiting to move into another one while I stay at my parents house. After a few troubled months of separation with my boyfriend of 8 years we're slowly getting back together. I started reading Vein of Gold by Julia Cameron and I'm also reading Finding What You Didin't Lose. Im thinking about taking a winter art class. I am really stressed out about not finding an apartment on my own soon. I can't live hear forever. -Brandi |
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| I was writing a lot for while. Now not that often. I had a poem accepted for publication but it won't be out until next year. I try keeping a daily schedule (something I've never been able to really do) but its not going that well. I'm kind of trying to learn German. I got a few books out from the library and I remember some of what I learned from when I tried to learn as a teenager. Maybe next spring I'l take a class. I don't think I'll be taking a class for credit at least this fall. I know my weakness by now. I'm seasonal affective as hell so no fall credit classes for me. I'd like to keep my gpa as it is, for now. But it sucks that it means wasting time. |
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| Lately I've been writing more and collaging, ATCs less. Even for about a year or so all or more all I did ws journal and practically gave up on writing as as everything in my life fell apart. During those times the only positive thing that didn't seem like work was collaging, painting, making ATCs, and such. Now I feel like I would have to choose one or the other and my obvious choice woud be writing poetry, and to continue to try to write a decent short story and sharpen my skills at nonfiction writing. I started reading Julia Cameron's latest 12 week book Finding Water{/}. I was redoing The Artist's Way and kind of still am at the same time. I might try to take a class this fall, even if the one I really want to take is noncreadit. Sometimes they have better writing and art classes as noncredit. I'm too old to care now about graduating. |
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| I havn't been here in a while. I havn't been writing alot except in my journal. I pretty much write in my journal every day though. I did write a poem a month ago. I sumbitted somewhere and it won second place in a monthly contest. I'm determined now though to write more. I've been making ATCs (artist trading cards) all the time and trading them in the mail. Lately I've just been making them for my grandmother who's really sick. |
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