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2024. Going anywhere inside my little world. |
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| You can tell my life has become hectic. Terry has practically become an invalid with this broken arm. So David and I have to be at her beck n call. I won't mention some of the things she has me doing because David can't/won't. I'm about ready to make a pass at her just so that she will put me back at arm's length. (She knows I am Bi and has given me fair warning already..... but like I said, it might get me out of some of the things I'm doing.) Needless to say about all I've been able to do is play games on my tablet, her tablet, and my laptop as I sit in my living room chair. Happy happy, joy joy. I can't do anything that needs my full attention because I've either got to do for Terry or take the dog out about every 15 minutes. I am going to enjoy tomorrow. I have to go out with my worker, then see my therapist. Which means at least two hours out of the house. There's just nothing to say. I have done nothing with my writing and I have not even been sleeping. I think I got four hours all weekend. I see my future and what is ahead of me. I am done moving around. My life in this room in this house is what is in store for me. I may change it slightly with my writing and such but for the most part this is it. It isn't all that bad. I have my best friend, sis, cousin, whatever you want to call her Terry. I have her son David that is already doing things to take care of me because of my illnesses. I'm sure I'm going to inherit some of the old age equipment that Terry currently has (or they will help me get my own when the time comes I am in need). It is really not such a bad life. I've been sick a bit this weekend too. My Parkinson's decided to be on steroids this weekend. I've been popping pain pills and my RLS medication like candy. I've had a constant headache because of my empathy being so strong with Terry. I am worried for her because I remember my brother's mother-in-law breaking a bone in her shoulder and she lost complete use of that arm Today my body decided to have severe gas and bloating. I don't want to whine all the time about being sick but what else can I do? It is mostly what is keeping me from writing. I have changed my saying from I am Terminally Lazy to I am Abnormally Apathetic. That sounds about right now. I'm going to have fun talking to Jacob (therapist) about it tomorrow. I'm going to try to stretch out and relax and watch a movie. (Probably Thirteen Ghosts again)..... |
| I don't really know how to write about this. I'm shaking as I type it. Terry fell over the dog chain this morning. David called an ambulance, and they took her in. David is on his way there now. David's solution: No more leashes or chains. We will have to discipline Prince if he goes in the house. We will have to go outside with him and watch him, so he doesn't run off. Oh joy. It sounds to me like when Bill Cosby says in his stand-up routine about how he announces that no one in his house should ever touch another person again. I need to take my anxiety meds....... I would like to enter into "The Starry Night" by Van Gogh. I can see myself camping there under the stars, laying back on my bedroll and just meditating on the beauty of it all. I would stay away from the castle out of respect. I will wait to be invited or to get some sign that the castle is empty. I so look forward to exploring it. There is probably as much beauty inside as there is out. I am staying in the living room watching movies today, probably for the same reason David is. Terry broke her right humourus bone and can't use her right arm. We are sticking close in case she needs anything. Right now I am watching a movie. AVATAR is almost as inspiring as The Lord of the Rings.. I just get lost in another world watching those movies. Maybe I'll watch TLotR after I get done with the two Avatar movies.... |
| I was celebrating all night. I am YELLOW!!!!!!!!!! Okay enough of that.... My Snoopy painting is finished and the other one is almost done. I've been working on the DP and it is going well. (I had one DP recently that didn't go well at all, anything that could go wrong did, and it came out looking like poop) So my extracuricular activities are going good. Today I am going to try to get some writing done. On what I don't know yet. I just hope it comes out to be more than scribbles and drivel. Maybe I'll look at a couple of the daily contests that are on here. Maybe I'll get inspired.. Write more later. it's later. Watched my favorite movie, "Thirteen Ghosts (2001)", and it gave me an idea to do another horror story about the twelve members of the black zodiac .... I thought about them being living creatures brought back from the dead and only the sacrifice of the thirteenth will send them all back to hell. I was even going to have a psychic named Dennis who explains everything (ala Sherlock) to the one who will be the thirteenth; probably some kid who wants nothing to do with any of it. That is until he meets one of the twelve (maybe the bound woman) and wants to help. Okay, it is 2:30 am and I have an appointment in the morning. |
| Got up at 7:30 am and figured I might as well get ready to go to my appointment. Got dressed and took care of a couple of necessities only to have them call me at 8:00 am to say my appointment was cancelled. I even dyed my hair last night getting ready for this. I guess I could have gone to Clubhouse or something but I didn't feel like it. Spent the first half of the day working on my two paintings and a new diamond painting (DP) but that is just really busy work. Am on here long enough now to answer a couple emails and leave a couple of snarky remarks here and there. Now I'm going to take a nap..... or finish cleaning my room if I can't sleep...... |
| Got up at 7:30 am and figured I might as well get ready to go to my appointment. Got dressed and took care of a couple of necessities only to have them call me at 8:00 am to say my appointment was cancelled. I even dyed my hair last night getting ready for this. I guess I could have gone to Clubhouse or something but I didn't feel like it. Spent the first half of the day working on my two paintings and a new diamond painting (DP) but that is just really busy work. Am on here long enough now to answer a couple emails and leave a couple of snarky remarks here and there. Now I'm going to take a nap..... or finish cleaning my room if I can't sleep...... |
| What do you write about when you can't/won't write about what is going on in your life? Right now what is going on is too stressful and complicated to talk about. Life is peachy. I have been painting for two days. The first one is Snoopy on top ofo his doghouse I am doing for my brother. it was looking poorly until Terry pointed out I was trying to use too much paint at once. (I would make a lowsy doctor, I have no patience) So I have to slow down. The second painting I started out just slopping paint on the canvas. I had a few paint tubes I needed to see if there was viable paint in them. It came out looking like someone slung mud on the canvas. I went to my room and flipped through the net until I looked up "painting for beginners" and found one showing how to paint a full moon. Okay so its not coming out as good or anything but I am using some of the techniques. ... anyway I've been painting...... ......and not doing much else. I sit around and look at my room (which is crime scene worthy chaos again) and complain to myself about the memory foam that is too big for the mattress so it is hanging three-quarters of the way off the bed. I can't do anything else about it until I clean the room. I need to put away my clean clothes that have been in my room for four days. my birds need cleaning again...... and I'm depressing myself even more because I can't get myself to do these things because I'm depressed... or actually because I'm apathetic.... I could care less..... |
| I wrote my novel!!!! Okay so it was only like a third of a page but I did write on it. Put a goal in NaNoWriMo to write 20,000 words in March. Hopefully I'll do at least half that. Had a guy in painting the dining room and hallway. It's nice to have that done finally. It was supposed to be done before Thanksgiving. He's still got to do the trim tomorrow. Terry's been working on a paint by number and I've been doing DP bookmarks. I'm on my last one then I've got to decide if I'm going back to my large picture or going to do the small and medium pictures I bought. Don't know what I'm doing. Right now I barely understand what I am typing. I am so tired. I guess I'd better quit and go to bed. |
| About the closest I know about serial killers is that I watch "Criminal Minds" a lot..Now if you want to talk about that, I can go on forever....... Okay, so you mentioned Jeffrey Dahmer. wasn't he the real Hannibal Lecter? Or was he the one that was the Zodiac? I just don't remember. Okay so I cheated and looked him up. He was a cannibal. I have spent some of the past two days writing drafts of chapters and notes on for my novel "Nezoom"....What I got so far is in my port and I would love just some opinions..... no formal ratings, just whether or not you think it is good and if it works. Are there places where I need to explain better? Just opinions. I have been thinking about writing for a couple of contests, but I don't know. They're not really inspiring me. I just did a review. I want to do enough to possibly become a preferred author. That would be cool but I'm not that worried about it. No matter. If I do it will be great, but I am good with where I am. Been using my laptop to do the writing and I tried to wipe it. It didn't do that, but it did speed it up whatever I did. It is fun using it but I keep forgetting it is not a touch screen. I think I may sell it and get a better one, but I don't know if I really want to do that. It is a Star Wars collector's edition HP. It has a light up keyboard. Like I said, I don't know. |
| I was a dark witch at one time who did black magick. I'm not proud of it. It is just a part of who I was and has shaped who I am. Just like being an addict, which I was at the same time. Why I am bringing this up now is that we have Terry's cousin, Bill, living with us. I don't know why but he is bringing out the sarcastic, evil side of me. I want to do things to him just for the heck of it. He's fun to tease and play pranks on, or threaten to play pranks on. Terry keeps telling him to stop encouraging me. She knows what I was like, though not completely. She knows enough though. I want to work on my writing. I told myself I was going to do that today. I also told myself I was going to fix my bed. The memory foam on it is too big for the mattress and the excess is hanging off the side away from the wall. Needless to say my bedding and everything else keeps sliding off the bed. Back to wanting to write. As usual I have too many irons in the fire and don't know what I want to work on. I know what I feel I should work. I'm about ready to take them out of my port so I stop feeling so obligated. I probably will. I have everything that's on here printed off in hard copy, except for Nezoom, and there isn't much of that in there. Another reason I am not writing is because I keep having the plague of the typo fairies when I type on my tablet. That and I can't type on it for very long because the writing is so small. I do still have my laptop however and I've fired it up a couple of times to see how it felt and how it is working. It's slow. Its awkward because I'm not used to the large size of it. It's not a touch screen so I have to use the finger plate mouse. It feels like it is ancient. I think I am going to go fire up the laptop now and see if I can do some writing....... |
| Today was a long day with almost nothing accomplished, as per usual. I had a technician come today to evaluate me for my insurance. She called me at eight am and says "My eight oclock appointment is in the hospital so do you mind if I come in about ten minutes?" Mind you, she woke me up. I did a ten minute flight of the bumble bee throwing my hair in a pony tail, taking my meds, cleaning up dog poop, grabbing some coffee and trying to wake up. I was there at the door to let her in. Everything went fine but she couldn't answer my questions because she was outsourced by my insurance, she doesn't work for them. Oh well. I found out my health is semi-fine anyhow. David went out for the night and I need my meds done so I guess I got to do them myself. Loads of fun. Hopefully I'll be able to make sense of his system and I won't screw it up too much. Let Cindy try to a DP bookmark yesterday and she totally messed it up. I had to start over from scratch to fix it which meant scraping off the diamonds that she put any where she wanted because she couldn't see the numbers. Oh well. We'll deal with the fall out later. I did do one bookmark and a wind chime before that. I haven't taken time to write other than scratch a few notes for 15 minutes twice today. I really need to take a day to write instead of spending most of it in the craft room. It just seems like when I take time for crafts it is okay but when I take time to write I'm violating some code that says that isn't important and other things are more important like hanging out in the living room watching TV. Go figure. Maybe I should sneak my writing into the craft room......... Right now I got to go work on my meds and then go to bed. |
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Love it! I hope "Kristy Parkers" is revived and publishes very soon!
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