Rated: ASR · Book · Biographical · #2260833
Blog attempt 1.
|Let me start with the most important thing I have to say right now...I don't know what to write. Followed by, I don't feel like writing.
But I want to keep my streak up. So I am writing this.
My head hurts. I am tired. I don't feel like doing anything. I think I am falling back into depression. Mother's day is coming up. My mom passed away 11 years ago. I miss her so much. She was such a good mom. I loved her so much. It tore me up when she got sick. I felt so useless. I couldn't make her better. She just wanted to come home, and meet her grandchildren. My sister wouldn't come and bring her kids to the hospital. I couldn't give her those last wishes. That made me feel like garbage. I am about to cry right now.
I am hoping to win the lottery tonight. Then I would so go nuts giving out gift points to everybody here. I would buy some land and build a big house, maybe several ones for everyone in my family. I would have an orchard of several types of fruits. I would build an indoor pool and have a private movie theater, a private bowling alley, and a library with those cool ladders...
Of course, I know I won't win the lottery. The chances are minuscule. I am more likely to get hit with lightning in my living room. Sigh.
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