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May 6 2025 - Life in the Matrix

Prompt: “Something must have gone awry with the programming. I have no idea where or when we are.”
Steven Decker, The Balance of Time. Do you think there is programming in our existence and do you ever feel like Steven Decker with all the goings on in this world?

Well, it certainly feels like we are living in the matrix on occasions, or that I've woken up in a completely different time... space... reality... with what is happening in the world today. Though I do have serious questions about the architect/programmer's mentally stability if this is indeed the case. They must try harder. The cracks are starting to show.

The stupidity of politicians or people with power always astounds me - as does the public's inability to read between the lines and see the overly hyped promises - based on the politician's own delusion of grandeur - for what they are. Yet these are the people "we" have chosen who steer our ships. It's terrifying. Many of them should have their licenses revoked because they cannot seem to see the iceberg/asteroid that is directly in our path. I swear some on them steer into it.

Sometimes our only options are to cling on for dear life and hope there are enough lifeboats. The alternatives of jumping ships (frying pan and fire come to mind) or calling for a mutiny (I think I could pull of a (space) pirate) are far too much effort and slightly too scary.

There are also times in my own life that I wonder "how the hell did I ended up here", and I'm not just talking about my sense of direction. Carefully laid out plans that are often thrown through a loop by seemingly outside forces, or my kids suddenly coming down with something - often something snotty... a preview of my future a few days later when I have a moment to collapse and take a breath. Or, things I just didn't account for (usually people actions/reactions - turns out I am not psychic) that are competing for the same space or path as me. Apparently, there is a race - it's just none of us are sure if its egg and spoon, three-legged, or wheelbarrow.

The question of Fate often rears its head - and I love a good "it's your fate" novel. I LOVE chosen ones, soulmates, and it's your destiny... as long as they are not about me, because I am a control freak and don't like the idea that my life is pre-programmed. I will rebel and start a revolution - even if it's just in my head.

I like the underdog story and the girl that can't be contained... far more for myself. My stubbornness often flares up whenever I am TOLD something of this nature; stubbornness that I am preprogrammed with from my DNA and upbringing. And yet I am firmly the captain of my ship - The Good Ship Seffi - and long may she sail!!