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May 8 2025 - It's Just Me

Prompt: I believe in me and am grateful for what I have.

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I have always been very secure in what I am capable of. I wouldn’t class myself as overconfident, I am well aware of my short comings. I am realist.

I know what I’m good at. I know what I’m not. I try not to let being “bad” at something stop me from having a go – especially when if it’s something new. I know there will be times that I am not as good as I can/could be, or remember being (youth is wasted on the young – mental experience v aging body = annoying). There will be times I make a complete mess at something – even if I have done it a hundred times before (baking brownies or reverse parallel parking…). I also know there are others just as good or better – like my husband, who beats me at anything remotely sporty….and that ok (although the husband thing is annoying at times and I may throw my toys out the pram on occasion).

I love murdering a good karaoke song – I can hold a tune, but I am never going to be the next Kylie, Swift or Debbie Harry. I can cook (haven’t poisoned anyone yet) but I’m not Gordon Ramsey. And I have no inclination to be.

My mother instilled a level of perfectionism that, I admit, I battle with. I am competitive by nature. I want to succeed. I like being recognised as good at something – I love it when someone likes/loves a story I wrote. But I know that there is more to life. That it’s ok to struggle. And that sometimes, the best times can be when you fail and get to laugh at yourself. It was only as I got older that I truly learnt that last part.

My husband often laughs at my confidence/ego during job interviews. I back myself 100%. I am more than capable at everything on the job specs I apply for. Any company would be lucky to have me and I’m interviewing them as much as they are interviewing me. I know I am good at what I do. I have been doing it for 15 years and I have handled many different types of projects/bids, and navigated a variety of different hurdles/challenges that inevitably come along with them. There isn’t a lot that would throw me through a loop or make my panic. And I have worked hard to be that confident – many late nights and long hours. The belief in myself is warranted.

That being said, I am grateful for every path I have had the opportunity to journey down. I am grateful for what I have collected over my years on this earth; family, friends, memories, and experiences. They have all taught me a lot about myself, who I want t be, and the world around me. Good an bad I wouldn’t be me without them. And I genuinely like being me.