What am I Doing Here?

Great Flood in the Hillcountry, Texas

Day 3885. July 3, 2025

Now that I know what has happened in my home state of Texas, I shudder to think what life would be like if I was in the Kerrville area during the flood that has happened.
Let me be clear, that I am so saddened beyond any picture my mind could create, that the place I have visited with school students could have been turned into a literal nightmare. (I do not know if the 'h' word would have been allowed.) The amount of rain that fell and flooded that area was from one of Steven King's novels. The scene of a night time emergency was like his novel. The screaming of young innocent children would stay in my memory without pause. The confusion of adults trying to interpret the alarms that were blaring could not be scripted. And the ensuing action was instinct for survival that did not result in a happy ending..

I went to church today. I still have one question in my mind. WHY? An answer some theologians would come up with is "The devil was busy." or "It was God's will". To me that is not an answer. Either one is an incredible copout. (Even though I have heard that one does not question God.)

There were alarm systems. There were adults there to supervise. The children were mostly girls who might have had this as their first camping trip from home. And no one, but NO ONE could guess there would be that much water. And unbelievably, more rain was predicted today.

Maybe the experts were keeping their eye on the storm Chantel at the east coast, to be more attention-worthy. The east coast has had problems with tropical storms. They are recovering from recent storms. And mainly the adults were keeping their eyes on weather reports and other warnings.

I heard that the owner of this place died trying to rescue some girls.Many first responders via heliocopters worked without rest to find just one more person. The community is trying to do anything to help. Other states are sending aid. Our President gave the Texas governor any requested help. Life depended on split second action not delays. And as of July 6, at 5:30 CST two more girls were plucked out of a tree and will sleep at home in their own beds within the next 24 hours.

What can I say about this? I am numb. I will never think anything is 'easy peasy.' Life is not always perfect. And when God calls, you cannot say "No."
I will see those smiling faces from pictures on TV, in my dreams or maybe nightmare. I pray for and then cry for those lost. And then I might tell someone, "That is not fair."
What do you think?