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Dazed and confused 🤔 but why? Not again!

Thinking of that Led Zeppelin song,as I started writing this!
Dazed and confused 🤔 🎶.
I'm pretty blue 💙 today y'all. It's easier to find someone to cheer up, then ask for support for myself
This place is for us to come together and be there for each other. I haven't been here a month yet but slowly connecting to other people trying to survive and thrive 🌻🌸!
I've been on many other sites over the past 20-plus years.
The longest has been on a writing site I belong to, for 19 or so years.
My plan has been to look over the stories, poems, blogs and everything but the kitchen sink (!) and keep the best. To finish or edit as needed!
All that sounds good and well but health problems keep those things from being done... Somedays I feel like " what's the point? I may always have sick mornings and days." " Why bother? easier to give up".
I'll probably copy this into my current blog. My friends have been supportive as they can be.
Just because one has faith 🙏 it doesn't mean they won't suffer. Sometimes they are tested more than others it seems to me!
It's hard when your dealing with depression on top of everything and others who don't have it, can't understand why your " making such a big deal" out of it.
For the past 10 years or so, I've been dealing with a spine,that has lost part of the cushions between them and can't be fixed. The pain is insane sometimes but all can be done is pain medicine. I used to take Ballet classes and it helped some a few years ago.
I'm trying to get back into it again but it's been a few months since.
I had to deal with ulcers for the last year and a half. The care received wasn't good and going to see another person next month.
Either it can be fixed or I have to live with this "forever". Or whatever time there is!
For years I was on the go! Raising kids later grandkids. Worked and did a lot to teach and help others over the years.
As crappy as I felt today, was trying to be patient and positive.
It also affects my sis who lives here. Today she needed a 6-pack to deal with me being sick again.
Even though she says " don't feel guilty, it's not your fault"
Her vision is low and makes it harder to drive in certain light conditions and keeping her from reading or sewing 🧵🪡.
I'm used to fixing things and situations. Bringing light 🕯️ to dark times with hope and faith 🙏.
It's a hot sunny day but too hot out and bright to go anywhere. It's too hard for her to get to where the kitty's nail lady moved. So if anyone knows of a good nail clippers for kitties with a light, not too spendy, please let me know!
Thanks for reading if you made it this far!
My dear grandson turned 15 yesterday 💖 Happy we all connected on the phone.

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