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July 15 2025 - Changes

Prompt: Sudden Changes - What would be a sudden change for you that could be acceptable? Do you handle changes well, and which kinds of sudden changes are you most able to face and work with?

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I don’t handle change well. That doesn’t mean I won’t accept it, it just means it may take me longer to be comfortable with it. I need time to process it. To mull over how the change will impact the different facets of my life. Once I have a plan in place for the change(s), I am fine.

I’m a control-freak. It’s not my best mannerism or characteristic . It’s not control over anything/one else – it just relates to myself. I like order and routine – not to the point of OCD, but I function better when I have a plan. Changes to that plan have to be carefully processed and weighted so that I understand the logic behind them. I need time to do that. If I’m rushed or pushed into that position, I can react badly. Thank god I have enough self-awareness to keep my mouth shut or avoid human contact during those times.

I don’t like the feeling of being coerced, or managed, or manipulated. And that is what it can feel like when I am pushed. When people keep pushing for acceptance or understanding of a change. I can usually spot it a mile of and then my stubborn streak comes out, which can be irrational…. on occasions… and I rebel and riot. My mother calls it “pure bloody mindedness”.

I used to think I was spontaneous – I think I WANTED to be spontaneous. Largely, because I associated it with being happy and carefree. I am the opposite of spontaneous. I need plans, and lists, and lots of notice…

I can be pragmatic when things are completely out of my control. Or when the change make sense, even if it’s uncomfortable. I mostly have challenges with people’s delivery methods.