My Right Patella Recovery

First entry

Next week it will be a month since I broke my right knee cap/patella. I broke it while at a roller skating party with my son. It has been very long and drawn out process towards recovery.

The fact that it happened on the knee that also is aflicted with cerebral palsy can be looked at in two ways. First, it can be seen as a blessing because the feeling in that knee is less than my other knee. This means the pain is dulled slightly. Second, it could be looked as unfortunate because it is harder to exercise a leg that hardly has any movement and a lot less muscle mass to being with. I have always been able to walk and run (since about age 3) but there is a noticible difference between my right and left leg.

My pain threshold is pretty high so I guess the pain I feel is dulled. This is a good thing but man I wonder if the pain was not dulled and I didn't have a high pain threshold would I be able to be doing what I am doing now. I hurt constantly and even sitting for long periods of time hurts tremendously.

The doctor is pleased with my recovery within the last three weeks. That is great but I feel like someone smashed my knee with a baseball bat.

For all of you out there that do not understand my poem, "Sitting here..." I hope this helps. Sometimes a brief explanation of where a person is in their life helps a lot.

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I am more myself in solitude. For in solitude I am myself.
-(c)Melia Benjamin, August 2000

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