My Right Patella Recovery

Today 3/13/03 !!!

I can't even remember if I have taken a Vicodin today. All I know is that my knee and lower leg and ankle hurt bad. I just want to go to sleep and forget today ever existed. The hospital said to call the doctor's office if the pain is not helped by the Vicodin but I don't want to cry wolf because when the wolf does end up at my doorstep no one will hear or care.

The sad thing is I have heard a few bones popping but I'm not sure which ones and if I should be concerned. I hear them do so when I'm dong nothing but lying in bed.

What if it was my knee? What if my doctor tries to accuse me again of doing something I have not done? I hate this because I am so sensitive and thus when I'm accused of something I burst out in tears and get even more depressed than I am already.

This whole recovery has been a mess. I just want it to be over and done with, now.

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I am more myself in solitude. For in solitude I am myself.
-(c)Melia Benjamin, August 2000

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