Day by day, again

Still grieving

I continue to have a hard time dealing with Daddy's death. I miss him so much it literally hurts. I am now seeing a therapist to help me deal with it and work and life and myself....lol. She is wonderful and I can say whatever I want to her without being judged or frowned at. Whats even better is that she is my age so she can related to me better than the young woman I tried to see before.

I never thought I would enjoy going to therapy but I do. I feel relieved when I leave and I can see problems more clearly. I hope she can help me break the horrible habit I have of procrastinating. That is my worst fault and has gotten me in hot water many times. I've gotten better but still do it sometimes. My life has been a "there's always tomorrow" or next week, next month, next year, when I feel like it, when it rains next, if it snows, blah, blah, blah. Any excuse I can come up with is used. Then to top it all off when procrastinating gets me in trouble, I find a way to rationalize it.

For an intellingent woman, I can so dumb sometimes.