Shellyville Continues

He has the support!

Hello,

Power and control and I am losing it. I don't have much to begin with right now but it sure is slipping away. I was in a 2 hour meeting this morning with Jackson's school and they sure do love that kid. They have put in place many options to help him, now if he could only learn to help himself.

I don't think he is "improved" or better or anywhere close to getting back to understanding what his role in life is about. I still see the defiance and absolute refusal to get it. It's damn scary what is happening and I am a huge part of the problem. I totally lost my cool again with him today.

I seriously need a higher dose of happy pills.

I have to get my personal life in order. I have to get security. I have to figure out what my role in life is about. I am slowly making improvements but it sure takes a long time to grow up!!

I am working it!

Love,
Michelle