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In Vino

by Veritas

Rated: 18+ · Book · Personal · #2140872

You will find Veritas

Because I usually am in Vino

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In 2009, I gave up my studies as a medievalist and musician, left my home, my family, my life and moved to Provence in southern France for a guy. In 2012, I moved away from him to study wine.

Today, I'm a vagabond sommelier working in Paris at one of the oldest and most famous restaurants in the world, struggling to find some purpose to what I deem the rest of my life. I'm still married and after 8 10 years, I'm still trying to fit-in with French life and culture and to understand why the French are the way they are. Because they're weird in a different way that I think Americans are weird.

Perhaps it's me who's weird.

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Charlie ~

Nov 1, 2020 at 4:31pm
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Oh hey, my relationship is similar!

I think it's awesome that you're using that negative experience to get creative. It's hard not to just wallow when those things happen. I use a paper journal for most of my actual coping process too, but I do share bits and pieces on WDC as well.

Charlie ~

Oct 30, 2020 at 7:22pm
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I hope NaNo does the trick in distracting you at the very least and healing you at best. I was planning on participating, but I realized I can't concentrate on a single idea for more than an hour.

Might try a short story a day instead. Stay safe.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Oct 30, 2020 at 1:35pm
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Great that you are back.

Moved?

We are going into lockdown here in Missoula but most of the region between Washington and New York resents any suggestion that they should care about others so the numbers soar. Both France and the US have other critical issues as well.

I'm doing NaNo... in my own way. Already started.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Aug 20, 2020 at 3:28pm
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Yep, rant. If you were here ... I'd say be prepared to dust and clean. Our summers are that dry. Customers? Many Americans can be rowdy but appreciative after a 'drought'. The French? Place and people. One can guess ... and that's about it.

Wordsmitty ✍️

Aug 20, 2020 at 1:17pm
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I've found myself in very similar situations and have tried the old "Give them enough rope and they'll ..." But as you note, many folks can't even figure out how to tie a knot! I know that's not really helpful, but at least you can see the situation and have the strength and courage to get through it. Rants are good for the soul.

Veritas

Jul 18, 2020 at 8:58am
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Sometimes I wonder why I can't just let it go the way some people are able to. After all, I wasn't the first, I won't be the last and what happened was so clouded in alcohol that I can't even tell you concretely if I ever said "No" not that it matters anyway. I went along with it because I thought I was supposed to. Which makes it all worse I guess. I don't know. But I do wish I could just get over it and move on.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Jul 13, 2020 at 5:06pm
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But you can come forward here. And that's a plus. Rant as much as you want.

I don't always share some traumas from my past as I don't want to relive them. Some are wrapped with layers of shame and blame I choose not to revisit. Some I've dealt with, found some peace, or just 'forgot'. Some I rant about.

We all heal in different ways. Expressing the rage is one theraputic way.

Much healthier than keeping it all in.

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Kåre เลียม Enga

Jun 16, 2020 at 6:13pm
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Yes... little community here at WDC.

I'm 'chatty' so I comment alot. Very little commenting in return. Much nicer back-in-the-day.

Yes, amateurs (which is fine, we all need to start somewhere) and those who are not interested in anyone outside their orbit. Very sad; but, I find a similar problem here in Montana ... folks don't reach out. Been here 12 long years. Had more interaction in Tulsa back-in-the-day. Maybe the culture has shifted as well. It's okay to sit behind a screen but not okay to hide behind one. Just my opinion.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Jun 14, 2020 at 1:56pm
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I remember odd snippets from KU. It was mostly a positive experience. High school or my first two years of university? A roller-coaster I got off and don't want to get back on. Yes, I should write about it but I'd rather do other things ... anything.

As for leaving WDC. Important to have everything backed up and anything important printed out. You could always just go 'basic' and that would allow you to peek in and comment when the urge hits you.

I barely keep in touch with anyone pre 2010. Sad. I could feel guilty but former friends aren't making much effort either. Nor are new ones. I feel very very isolated.

Kåre เลียม Enga

Jun 14, 2020 at 1:46pm
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I stay because I have nowhere else to go.

I've cut and run in my personal life ... mostly that didn't work out well.

When some writers here went to Open Salon they were very happy. But that closed and WDC is still here. Many drifted off to spacebook. They're still there, kinda... but that place is a mindfield.

I tried years ago to have better connections with local writers but I don't do 'groups' well and frankly ... they did not welcome me. But the group at the open group at the library persists ... if the library were open.

I'm thinking about moving back to the plains. Real people. Real relationships. Real boring.

I have to avoid drama in real life. Drama on-line is bad for me as well. My nerves can't take it.

But where to go?

March 29, 2020 at 4:13am

#979546

In which on the 13th day Daylight Savings happened

Today is Daylight Savings in Europe. Fuck you DST. I woke up and it was already 8:30 even though my body was screaming that it was only 7:30. My computer clock tells my it's already 10am and I just finished my coffee and want to crawl back into bed. Even the cats were confused this morning when I managed to roll out of bed and down the stairs because I had to pee and make coffee. They lifted their heads from their respective spots in the bedroom - Pistou on a suitcase (which is now so covered in his fur it's unsuitable for air travel) and Dumpling on the windowsill - and looked at me as though they could not understand what I was doing up at this ungodly hour. On the weekends apparently no one in this house gets up before 9. Unless my husband is getting up to go drive to the train station to pick me up. But I'm already home - so again, they silently asked the question "What are you doing up at this ungodly hour?"

I went to bed early last night. At 22h30 rather than midnight. I just had no energy to stay awake, or motivation to do anything including computer games. This morning it is much the same. I just want to stay in bed. I will work out today because I have to, but probably later rather than sooner. Or maybe I'll just do a half an hour. I studied a little yesterday and the day before that I was feeling pretty good about myself and now... I feel deflated. One day at a time I guess. I didn't sleep very well last night.

In the background to this pointless ramble, I'm playing the Met Opera's live streaming production of the day. They had Wagner week, which I studiously ignored. When I was a musician I had so many friends and colleagues who were huge fans of Wagner but I just can't get into him. He was an asshole and his music is long winded and boring. Today the Met is streaming Die Meistersinger von Nürnberg and it's fucking 5 hours long. 5 hours for a story about a guy who wants to learn to sing so he can marry a girl. And it's supposedly a comedy - dramatic comedy, not modern comedy.

I'm kind of sad I missed Die Walküre though.

Anyway, while Wagner's music is lush and big and velvety and rich and full and basically a big glass of aged Chave Hermitage or Vieux Château Certan I find it overrated. 20 minutes of meandering around a chord. Where one or two glasses might be enough he tries to pour a magnum down your throats.

While the analogy comparing to Wagner to a Hermitage is actually apt, my writing is crap. It's too early for this. Even though my clock says it's 10h15.

Fuck you DST.

Editing this post to add: After writing and posting this I roamed around on WDC for about 30 minutes. It's now 10h46 and Die Meistersinger is still on the 1st scene of Act 1. 1st scene of act 1. It's been 45 minutes... Just to highlight the ridiculousness that is Wagner.

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