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Well, not so much fun and leisure as...get some damn writing done, you fool!

A while ago, I attended a writers' workshop and the lady who hosted it told us all to go away with this bit of advice - to write for just ten minutes a day. I was determined to go ahead with it and I did...for two days. So today I remembered that I'd resolved to do so and I whipped out my journal and wrote for fifteen minutes.

I'm typing out pretty much the same thing that I wrote earlier, with some differences. I find I can go a lot more in-depth when I'm typing than when I'm writing by hand. Writing by hand is such a chore!

I've struggled with loneliness a lot throughout my twenty-nine years. I struggled with it when I was the only one home with my mum when I was a teen and everybody else had other places to be. I struggled with it after marriage and when we moved into our own house for the first time. I struggled with it after my son was born and I felt torn between pursuing my writing and being a good mum, because my culture seems to indicate that a woman has absolutely no chance of living her own life - or at least, she has no chance of attaining any goals she hasn't already attained - once she has children.

I feel it occasionally still, even though I get so little time to myself nowadays that any alone time is simply awesome. I've tried to come to terms with the idea that being alone isn't a bad thing - and a lot of the time, it isn't. My friends don't live nearby so I don't get to see them often, and even when I do, I feel like there isn't much depth to our conversations. I'm surrounded by people who do not think like me, who do not share any of my interests and hobbies. I feel like I've become desensitised to isolation. Loneliness is my preferred way to be.

I walked into my college cafeteria at lunch today and it was the usual hubbub of activity. Youngsters walking around, chatting animatedly, shouting across the room, laughing, eating, socialising. I could recall how that clamour wouldn't have bothered me ten-twelve years ago, when I would have been one of the youngsters talking excitedly with her friends. But, as this moment, I just found an out-of-the-way little table and sat down. I watched the crowds for a while, wondering why it was only at moments like these that the sense of isolation became so strong. In the middle of a crowd, I feel most alone.
August 27, 2019 at 6:00pm
August 27, 2019 at 6:00pm
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I guess not really "paid", but...yeah. Motherhood and its associated endevours are often not very rewarding. That's my opinion anyway.

I've been rushing about all day, busy with something or other. I have only myself to blame - I'm not very good at pacing myself and on the days when I don't wake up early for my prayers, I sleep in and lose several valuable hours I could have spent doing some writing or working on my college assignments.

Anywho, I have done nothing for my story today. I have not read anything or edited anything or even thought about my stories. I want to explore my idea for the story I'm going to be doing for NaNo this year. So, basically, because I'm more into the idea of exploring racism and prejudice and all that, I thought it would be interesting if one of the main characters brings some diversity into the mix and the relationship between these characters has to be about finding ways around the cultural differences and language barriers or something. But these types of stories are not usually my kind of thing, although it would be nice to add to my skills. I'm thinking now that I've been over this because it's starting to sound very familiar...I don't have a very good memory.

But that's what I'm thinking of. Hopefully, I'll get an early start tomorrow and try to get some of it out.

23:00

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