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 Well, not so much fun and leisure as...get some damn writing done, you fool! |
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A while ago, I attended a writers' workshop and the lady who hosted it told us all to go away with this bit of advice - to write for just ten minutes a day. I was determined to go ahead with it and I did...for two days. So today I remembered that I'd resolved to do so and I whipped out my journal and wrote for fifteen minutes. I'm typing out pretty much the same thing that I wrote earlier, with some differences. I find I can go a lot more in-depth when I'm typing than when I'm writing by hand. Writing by hand is such a chore! I've struggled with loneliness a lot throughout my twenty-nine years. I struggled with it when I was the only one home with my mum when I was a teen and everybody else had other places to be. I struggled with it after marriage and when we moved into our own house for the first time. I struggled with it after my son was born and I felt torn between pursuing my writing and being a good mum, because my culture seems to indicate that a woman has absolutely no chance of living her own life - or at least, she has no chance of attaining any goals she hasn't already attained - once she has children. I feel it occasionally still, even though I get so little time to myself nowadays that any alone time is simply awesome. I've tried to come to terms with the idea that being alone isn't a bad thing - and a lot of the time, it isn't. My friends don't live nearby so I don't get to see them often, and even when I do, I feel like there isn't much depth to our conversations. I'm surrounded by people who do not think like me, who do not share any of my interests and hobbies. I feel like I've become desensitised to isolation. Loneliness is my preferred way to be. I walked into my college cafeteria at lunch today and it was the usual hubbub of activity. Youngsters walking around, chatting animatedly, shouting across the room, laughing, eating, socialising. I could recall how that clamour wouldn't have bothered me ten-twelve years ago, when I would have been one of the youngsters talking excitedly with her friends. But, as this moment, I just found an out-of-the-way little table and sat down. I watched the crowds for a while, wondering why it was only at moments like these that the sense of isolation became so strong. In the middle of a crowd, I feel most alone. |
| 22:45 ...So titled because I very rarely have any. Yesterday, I missed out a few items on my daily checklist - my blog, my languages, my writing too. It was a good day but I forgot that when I meet up with my friends, we try to stretch out the get-together for as long as possible since we don't get to meet-up very often. She left just after half twelve at night :D No big deal, right? Between the two of us, we had seven kids and just one of them is above the age of ten. We stayed up watching Pacific Rim, which is long! I should have prepared better - I had the whole morning to sort everything out. I feel the most upset about my languages - I lost my 156+ day streak on Memrise, for my Japanese. All the others had been between 36+ to 56+ days but I managed to get them done before the clock reset at 01:00. Japanese was the main one!  Seeing the streak meter thing reset was depressing. I was a lot less motivated today. On the other hand, maybe I could take this opportunity to stop some of them and lighten the load. Italian is just not in line with the other languages I'm learning, although I do want to learn it. But Mandarin, Korean, and Japanese have a lot of overlap so it's not too bad when you learn them all together. But I need to focus my learning. I shall do better! I was going to start working on my character song here (which I was supposed to have started yesterday) but I'm on my laptop and don't have it at hand so hopefully, will do that tomorrow. I will also provide an update on how my novel - which is supposed to be finished by tomorrow - is doing. Haaaaaaa. What a disaster. 22:55 ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
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