Thanks everyone. My wife appreciates all the cares and comments. Maybe I'll be able to convince her to come hang here with us rather than on Facebook with her mom.
I hear you. Went through my own anniversaries of those lost last month and it knocked me out for two weeks straight before I could get my head around writing again.
Don't let guilt be one of the emotions. We feel what we feel. We remember, usually not when we'd like to, and often times, at the worst possible time.
I filled my time with memories- as many good ones as I could pack into my quiet time. I focused on watching the birds at the feeder outside my office window. Did the bare minimum at work. Tried to enjoy time with friends.
Eventually, it passed.
I've found that sometimes talking to them helps, even though they can't hear. Do the things that give you joy and peace, and most of all, forgive yourself for whatever wasn't done, wasn't said, or conversely, was. Let lavender winds ease your pain and remember, we're all here if you need us.
Today has been a bad day. My mother-in-law did something inexcusable this morning. My wife has been in tears on and off all day. Basically, she sent my wife a reel on Facebook that ended with the following punchline, "Children are just cum you decided to keep as a pet. She sent this to her eldest daughter, my wife. My wife has always been insecure about whether her mother loved her, because her birth was not only unplanned but unexpected. That and definite neglect throughout the years. Personally, I would like to rip my mother-in-law a new butthole. But I am not because my wife begged me not to start something with her mother, and I am following her wishes. But that doesn't mean I didn't have to vent.
I have been having a bad time. September 2nd was the 14th anniversary of my mother's passing. With all of the ups and downs of the last few weeks, this anniversary is hitting me. I have barely been on WdC. I was 4 drabbles behind on the drabble challenge. I just didn't have it in me. I am doing a little better today.
Guess what! Friday is going to be a great day! Our ramp comes on Friday! That means my wife could go to the eye surgeon next week! Now she isn't sure she can handle getting outside again. (slamming head into door.)
I am waiting on a call from the woman who holds our mortgage. It seems she thinks my wife shouldn't wait a year to get her sight fixed. If she can pull the money out of one of her accounts, it looks like she is going to refinance. That means we could possibly have a ramp by the end of the month at the soonest.
Strangely this news threw my wife into a panic attack instead of a feeling of relief. It seems she is scared to leave the house again because the last time wasn't any fun. And she is looking forward to surgery when she goes.
I am depressed. It looks like the waiting list for help with the ramp is a year or more long, and we are at the end. My wife will most likely be completely blind by then. I got an estimate from a handiman for 3500 for a ramp. I am ready to try refinancing my mortgage and just paying for that ramp. If I can convince the woman who holds our mortgage.
Today was a pretty good day, even though my wife had a hard time with things this morning. She is scared that she will go completely blind before we can get her in for her surgeries. I am doing everything I can to get the ramp put in, but at times like that, it just doesn't feel like I am doing enough.
We are breathing easier. It seems precious only has a bad sprain. The vet gave her 10 days worth of pain meds and said nothing was broken. No x-rays were needed. So just a relatively small hit to the budget
Already putting away birthday celebration gift points. I won 10k for my 12:01 review. That was cool. I was disappointed at not getting my review done to count for yesterday but this was cool.
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