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Hi Schnujo, Wow, that's so much to deal with, I think you're amazing if your brain is so confused, chemically, that is. I can't benefit from the dr as I live in the UK, but the info about PTSD is useful as my sister has it, for very different reasons than you. However, she uses it to get what she wants from people and now can't understand why people do exactly what you said, and avoid her. You don't have to deny you have a problem, but I think it's better to educate than manipulate, if that makes sense.
I have Adhd as well has having had brain surgery when I was young, about19. It left me with a hole in my brain. It is in the area where my short term memory is. Before the op my short term memory was almost non-existent. It improved afterwards to a point it was almost the same as everyone else's, but I've never been able to remember people's names well, not a problem sometimes, some people need forgetting, just like things lol.
The Menopause, hasn't been too bad due to one of the medications I take, which is also useful for Menopause. But, my memory has deteriorated, and with my Mum having Dementia, it's worrying. I have Migrainous Epilepsy, it's a left over result from the op, it's the scarring left behind. At least they aren't drop seizures like I had originally, and mostly under control, but medication makes me exhausted, plus I have Fibromyalgia, so if it all kicks off together, I'm usually laid up for a few days at a time.
I also have to be permanently on antidepressants as that was the part of my brain affected, it was the Temporal Lobe. I tried coming off them, really slowly, and just over a month after coming off them I was suddenly suicidal, it was awful. They said, if it had been coming off the tablets it would have happened faster, so it looks like it was my body's cry out that it actually needed them, that it wasn't able to balance my moods by itself.
I do hope, Schnujo, that you get back on your meds as soon as possible, it must be so hard for you to be without them, I can't imagine what I would be like without mine.
Take everything slowly, and one step at a time, your amazing attitude will definitely help you through, well done my friend.