Determined to Change

The private thoughts of life void of control.

Determined to change
World on the shoulders
There's nothing here left worth the fight
Fingertips calloused
Firm grip on thick malice
Sounds of it last all through the night
Digressing slowly
Yet quickly imploding
Eroding........... insides turning out
No signs of care showing
Nor thinking or knowing
This something just might take my life
In need of distraction
To keep from the action
Who's the cause of this nights decline
The detestable action
Proves through recent habit
That no one can save me this time