Death of a Friendship

the title says it all.................

Death of a Friendship........

I hid my feelings away a long time ago,
Locked away, I didn't realize they'd grow.
Exposed to my eyes, I realize my fears
I've fallen for you after all these years.
I've told myself time and time again,
"Don't do this Jo, you're better off as friends".
But I deluded myself by saying,
"It's Okay, I won't feel".
Now it's too late,
The emotions are strong, the pain is real.
I know you told me before,
I didn't go in blindly,
"No strings, just a good time, right?",
you said so kindly.
Your silence is deafening now,
Your avoidance has hurt me more than you know.
I miss our friendship,
But I want so much more.