Unexpectedly Expected

another one from my notebook

My lifes been a soulful struggle
Living in all this hustle & bustle
Being pushed around by words and muscle

Turning your back on the ones who loved you
Look around...ain't that your cue
Take care of whats gotta be done
Do you really wanna be a fucking noone

All the feelings you hide
Occasionally cause you to cry
When they try to arise
You shove them back down, deep inside

I need a release
I need room to breathe
I've still got a life to live
I've still got blood to bleed

Things happen the way they do
  only if you let it
No looking back everything has been
  unexpectedly expected
Everything I attempt to do gets rejected
The pain inside kills me
But only because I let it