Apology

I'm sorry for being me.

I'm sorry for
breaking your heart
and tearing it
into
microscopic
pieces

and for
forgetting
that we once loved each other

I'm sorry for thinking
rationally
and for attempting
to
fuel logical
intellect

I'm sorry for
wanting what's best for myself
because self-interest seems
to be the root
of all evil

I'm sorry for trying
to spare your feelings
because consequently
I end up being the one

with cruel intentions

i'm sorry for
everything I've ever
said or done
because it doesn't really
matter in the end

I'm sorry for ruining your life
taking all thats good
and twisting it
and manipulating it
so

I can finally sleep at night


I'm sorry for being me
because obviously
I'm not good enough
to know whats
best
for myself


I'm sorry for being

so cruel

and for thinking
that I can be happy

for a change.