Too much to bear and no escape.

I'm in pain. Physically and emotionally.

Do you know what it's like? To look in the mirror and see all that I see. The inside, the outside, everything that encompasses me.

My back, my chest, my shoulder, my breast. Then there's all the rest.

The inside is as twisted as the outside. Even more. Dark and scary, nothing that pills and therapy could ever cure.

I'm choking on my bile. I disgust myself. I'm such a freak. My world is utterly oblique.

When the inside and outside are in such ruins, there's no where to turn. Everything becomes sadder and darker. I mourn. I burn.