find me

just some feelings

help me, I'm lost....
i was taking apart by the man that i loved he told me he'd be there i gave him my heart. now I'm longing to find all my missing parts.
i dug in the pictures of our summer vaca where he whisked me away and told me we would marry.
i found a piece in the sand and had to fight with the gulls...
next i looked in the boxes he left on my porch, of the clothes id left over the movies i forgot amongst the stupid gifts that i had so thoughtfully bought...
lay a little bit more of what i searched for... me
now i lay down and i close my eyes and i dream of the moments we had for that time. sorting through all the laughter and fights the terrible feeling when i lost my dignity... i found once more a tiny shard but I'm still looking for the bits of whats left
but till then i look for something to fill it in just till he gives back the rest