Sister

Difficulty adjusting to seeing my twin sis less after she had suffered depression

Sister, my only sister
My closest friend
Perhaps my only true friend
I miss you

Could never understand
What you went through
But you know I would have been there
If you'd have just told me
Why didn't you tell me?

You break my heart
It's hello, then goodbye
Again so soon

I cannot bear it sometimes
I get so annoyed with you
I try to treat you as carelessly
As you treat me sometimes
But I can't do it
As much as I hate you sometimes
I'll always love you ten times more

I wonder if you came home
Would it ever be the same
As it once was?

And I want to scream at you
Why are you still doing this?
You abandoned me
We were always in it together
But then I think
Maybe I'm being selfish
What about what you need?

You tell me no matter what
Our bond will always be there
But I feel it's under strain
I'm tired of circling emotions
I just want it all to make sense

Sister, my only sister,
My closest friend,
Perhaps my only true friend
I miss you