Life's Disappointment

Poetry is one of my ways of just venting things I'm not emo or anything along those lines.

I'm sorry I'm a failure just pretend that you don't know me
I'm slowly dying on the inside soon i'll set this thing called life free
I'm tired from all i've cried it's hard to hold my head up
I feel my smile is a lie, i've already given up
would do anything for anyone yet while i bleed no one lifts a finger
but i cast that pain aside with a tear always on the linger
I'm sick of hope it only cause me pain
i just wanna rest my eyes from this life filled with vain
tell me how can one remain sane if they're always to blame?
put down and hated for not wanting to always be used
my generosity's hitting it's limit, how much more can it be abused?
I feel desperate and lonely yet push everyone away
everywhere i go i feel no reason to stay
I say what would people do without me if i chose to leave before my time
and a cruel voice can't help but whisper in me they'd be more than fine