Why?

Why do I do these things

Why is it dark and
why am I cold
and trapped?

I am chained
to a wall
of a silent room.
Why?

It's quiet
very quiet
and it scares me?
Why?

Why do I scream
and cry as though
people can hear me.

But they can hear me
and come to help me.
But why do I yell for them to go away?
Why?

And when they come close,
I kick them
and scare them away.
Why?

Why do I deny help
from those who offer their hands
to save me?
Tell me.

Can anybody tell me why?
Is the answer because,
the scar of the past
still hurts me?