Torments of my soul

how I felt when i needed him and he... wasn't there

My heart is like a wounded deer,
Its life ending, its sight unclear
Eyes full of tears that are dripping everywhere -
Because I needed you, but you weren't there.

I never found out why you changed towards me
And though you can deny it, it is easy to see.
I never found out why you didn't care
When I needed you and you (still) weren't there.

I don't know what you'll say when I tell you how I feel
When I pour out my heart and open its seal;
I can survive everything, but an ending I can't bare
Despite everything, I need you, but you're just not there.

For a few more days, I'll torture my mind,
Hoping for the answers I know I won't find.
My thoughts are still unknown but these I had to share...
I still need you, so why aren't you there?