What is True

My story of losing my children to addiction, and the strength to keep fighting for them.

I'm sorry for abandoning you.
I'm sorry for everything I believed that was not true.

All I ever wanted was you guys,
now I'm here counting the days
as the time flies by.

I miss holding you,
I miss being with you.
You will always mean everything to me and that is true.

Never again will I let fear or addiction take me away,
As I focus on being given this brand new day!

To make things right,
to be there for you in this life a light.

To take the pain I caused away,
I pray to God for every single day.

You can trust in me,
to never go back to where I used to be.

I love you with every part of my being,
and now I will go forward clearly seeing.

I was deceived, so many things were not true
But what I do know
is that I will never
not ever,
stop fighting for you.