|Boy do I know an outburst of uncertainty, spawned by an omission of hatred when I see one. I live these outbursts within my mind any time that I stop to think of how I've been wronged or cheated.
Let me tell you this, this is a good piece of writing because it shows people how difficult it can be to have faith. That said, let me tell you this. Everybody is struggling, even the ones that aren't appearing so. Religion is a tool, and spirituality is the house. We are all uncertain.
As long as you know how to channel your feelings (creatively, in the case of depression) then you know how to become LIKE God, rather than at the mercy of him and the Devil. The Devil is an essence of temptation. Hell and Heaven are both on Earth.
But the astral plane, the place you see before your final chapter is ended? That is very real. Either you see it or you don't, but whatever you do, don't omit your hatred. Rather let it flow, and lead you into knowledge. God wouldn't give you thoughts and feelings if he didn't want you to have them.
I hope you don't think I'm being intrusive. I just like to help.