Lost

Inner struggle to come to terms with life after the service

I have nothing to offer
nothing to give
my life is not my own
on borrowed days do I live
I wish I was more,
could be there for you
but everything's such a haze
and I don't know what to do
the harder that I try
the more I seem to lose
the question lingering ahead
is which path do I chose?
trying to find the way
to the place I need to be
and so much searching
to find the true me