souffrir. it means: to suffer.

Older material, when I was working through abuse. A little graphic.

one thing after another.
one traumatic experience jumps down the throat of another,
simultaneously tearing the limply beating heart from my chest.

exaggerated startle response.
excessive display of obsequious behavior.
anxiety. phobia. flashbacks.

a broken record film reel repeats the ominous motions
of gray shadows in dark orange lamp light
and every bone breaks
and every nerve shorts
like a severed wire...

imaginary sparks fly from the hair dryer in my bath tub
that rests with these still blue knees.
find my happiness under the electric water,
like happy scars beneath this melancholy flesh.

wishing the days away and always never knowing the truth about anything

life just has to get better.

"It can't rain all the time."

HOPE