Or Did I?

Questioning if there is regret in my decissions

Or Did I?

A life of control and jealousy,
over in a blink of the eye.
It's what I have wanted,
or did I?

Lonliness kicks me in my heart,
the tears never want to end.
This isn't what I wished for,
or did I?

Changes in my daily routine,
more pressure I can't bare.
It's not what I expected,
or did I?

Fighting every time I see him,
rage burning within my soul.
This isn't what I craved,
or did I?

Trapped alone with my thoughts,
with no time for some release.
It's not what I planned on,
or did I?

Sleepless nights alone in bed,
no warmth to curl up next to.
This isn't what I desired,
or did I?