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some whats and whys

I just can't be happy. What's wrong with me? What have I done to receive this turmoil? What sin did I commit for me to be punished for so harshly? Is loving someone a sin? Why do I always go through this? Why do I get hurt? Why can't I find someone to love me?
 
Just unconditionally, why does this always happen to me? Why does my heart get hurt so much? Why do I always open my heart in the first place when I know I'm going to get hurt? It seems like getting hurt is written throughout  my heart.

Am I being selfish? Am I trying to hard? Am I falling for the first guy I see? What"s wrong with me? Why can't I find someone to love me? Some one to hold me, to tell me they need and love me. Did I do something in a  past life that I getting punished for in this one? Why does love seem like it's just out of my reach?