Then Again, Maybe Not

I want this.
Or do I?

My head does.
Who tells me I
Am weak. Worthless.
Unwanted and will
Never find my place.

My heart doesn’t.
Who tells me I am
Loved. Important. That I am needed
And mean too much to
Too many to be gone
Forever.

My head says negative
Things that try to
Convince me.
Yet my heart says
More. Things that
Prove my head wrong.

Maybe I don’t
Want this. Besides,
When have I ever
Trusted my head, anyway?