The start to my journey and my reason for being here.
|Take my hand and walk with me. Walk down my journey with me, here my story,gain hope,power,self love and strength. I often wonder how I made it to where I'm at today. I had not one person to love,or support me. I was tossed from home to home in and out of foster care. I felt so empty and alone. I was in and out of trouble and seeked attention from all the wrong places. I was severely mentally and physically abused. I was sexually abused, rapped several times by several different people. I hated everything about myself and did everything I could to not look at myself in the mirror. I felt nasty,gross, fat,ugly, I felt used and like I was nothing. I remember starting at a young age I would pray to God and beg him at night before I feel asleep to not let me wake up the next morning. I couldn't comphened why God would put me here to go through nothing but hurt and pain. And with parents who never wanted me. I had no purpose,no reason,no directions. No love oKr support. I had nothing to look forward to ever. I didn't get to experience a normal childhood. I was told I was like mrdd and would never be able to live a normal life. I had several suicide attempts a couple I came very close to successfully actually dying. At the time I was so angry that I woke up a Live. I wanted to be gone. After highschool I decided why others were going to college\work,etc I was going to become the opposite. I be came a liar,theif, a manipulator, homeless,and world biggest loser drug addict. I also got with an older man who did some pretty bad things to me. Lasted for angelalong time. Let's just say I def have a guardian angel that's forsure. It wasn't until I had my miracle baby girl that my did a whole 360. I finally had a reason to Live and a purpose. I use what I've been through to help others. I can't cope with the thought of another human feeling and going through what I did especially with no love and support. I will Love and support you no matter what!!! I mean that with every ounce of blood in my body. I now live to help others and tell my story. Stay tuned to gain strength.|