Deafen Me With Your Silence

There is a sound no one can hear,
But for me, it is loud and clear.
Expectations don't come for free,
Disappointment sucks when you are me.

I hear it everywhere I go,
My ears prick up and then I know.
Silence is its own reward,
But way too loud when I'm ignored.

Rest assured I'm not deceased,
There would have been a press release.
My own funeral I'd attend,
My own eulogy I'd have penned.

Saying, “I'm not dead, just overlooked.”
My social life is undercooked.
I'll call you...you won't call me,
Check your diary if you're free.

I don't know why I'm on the nose,
Is anyone willing to disclose?
Silence is the loudest sound,
Celibate rifles on the battleground.

Should I pretend that I don't care?
Act as if I'm unaware?
Pretending and acting aren't my thing,
Confrontation in full swing.

Bring it all to a head,
I may smell bad, but I ain't dead.
Whispers quietly deafen me,
I'm no longer your cup of tea.

Would be sad...got mad instead.
When I think about it, I see red.
You can all go and jump,
I'm lovelorn, but not a chump.
.
What could I gain...what is my hope?
Of putting you under the microscope
That quiet shrug, an act so smug,
Sweep me under your proverbial rug.

There I'll gather like a lump.
Slow down for the speed bump.
Deal with me or walk away,
Don't keep me near for a rainy day.

It's sad to think I've become a chore,
Looking back on how we were before.
For my part, I apologise,
For bringing about our demise.

I wish you all the very best,
For the time we had, I feel blessed.
I never meant to cause you pain,
One more link in the daisy chain.