Shouldn't I? WIP

Ver 1.8

Friday night, round two a.m.
I'm sitting here in the dark again,
I'm locking up my fears, and hurts,
Burying them with unspoken words,
Reaching for some reason,

I. can't. find...

Just another something, cuts so deep,
Another fading mem'ry, don't wanna keep
Another sting, while I long for peace,
Drifting into darkness, I'm moving slow,
And where else would I go?

Shouldn't I be feelin'
something here tonight?
Shouldn't I be lookin'
to make me right?
Wouldn't it be better
to find a way to be?
Instead of always thinkin'
I could be free...

Maybe there's an answer,
hiding out of sight,
That'll pull me back,
lead me to the light?
Oh, shouldn't I be wantin'
the fire to burn?
Shouldn't I be waiting'
for another page to turn?

Shouldn't I take one more bite,
To prove to me I'm still alive,
Just to chase another pointless dawn,
To find a self I've never known

Maybe there's no fighting back?
From one last gentle kiss
Shouldn't I?
Find an edge that doesn't miss...

Shouldn't I?


AI Musical Interpretation ▶︎

I can't sing or play well enough, hence this. It's far from perfect, but it isn't terrible...

https://www.aisongmaker.io/music/e3deab07-b016-4419-ba8c-a9e8fba43dc4