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In Vino

by Veritas

Rated: 18+ · Book · Personal · #2140872

You will find Veritas

Because I usually am in Vino

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In 2009, I gave up my studies as a medievalist and musician, left my home, my family, my life and moved to Provence in southern France for a guy. In 2012, I moved away from him to study wine.

Today, I'm a vagabond sommelier working in Paris at one of the oldest and most famous restaurants in the world, struggling to find some purpose to what I deem the rest of my life. I'm still married and after 8 10 years, I'm still trying to fit-in with French life and culture and to understand why the French are the way they are. Because they're weird in a different way that I think Americans are weird.

Perhaps it's me who's weird.

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Charlie ~

Nov 1, 2020 at 4:31pm
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Oh hey, my relationship is similar!

I think it's awesome that you're using that negative experience to get creative. It's hard not to just wallow when those things happen. I use a paper journal for most of my actual coping process too, but I do share bits and pieces on WDC as well.

Charlie ~

Oct 30, 2020 at 7:22pm
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I hope NaNo does the trick in distracting you at the very least and healing you at best. I was planning on participating, but I realized I can't concentrate on a single idea for more than an hour.

Might try a short story a day instead. Stay safe.

Kåre Enga in Montana

Oct 30, 2020 at 1:35pm
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Great that you are back.

Moved?

We are going into lockdown here in Missoula but most of the region between Washington and New York resents any suggestion that they should care about others so the numbers soar. Both France and the US have other critical issues as well.

I'm doing NaNo... in my own way. Already started.

Kåre Enga in Montana

Aug 20, 2020 at 3:28pm
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Yep, rant. If you were here ... I'd say be prepared to dust and clean. Our summers are that dry. Customers? Many Americans can be rowdy but appreciative after a 'drought'. The French? Place and people. One can guess ... and that's about it.

Wordsmitty ✍️

Aug 20, 2020 at 1:17pm
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I've found myself in very similar situations and have tried the old "Give them enough rope and they'll ..." But as you note, many folks can't even figure out how to tie a knot! I know that's not really helpful, but at least you can see the situation and have the strength and courage to get through it. Rants are good for the soul.

Veritas

Jul 18, 2020 at 8:58am
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Sometimes I wonder why I can't just let it go the way some people are able to. After all, I wasn't the first, I won't be the last and what happened was so clouded in alcohol that I can't even tell you concretely if I ever said "No" not that it matters anyway. I went along with it because I thought I was supposed to. Which makes it all worse I guess. I don't know. But I do wish I could just get over it and move on.

Kåre Enga in Montana

Jul 13, 2020 at 5:06pm
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But you can come forward here. And that's a plus. Rant as much as you want.

I don't always share some traumas from my past as I don't want to relive them. Some are wrapped with layers of shame and blame I choose not to revisit. Some I've dealt with, found some peace, or just 'forgot'. Some I rant about.

We all heal in different ways. Expressing the rage is one theraputic way.

Much healthier than keeping it all in.

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Kåre Enga in Montana

Jun 16, 2020 at 6:13pm
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Yes... little community here at WDC.

I'm 'chatty' so I comment alot. Very little commenting in return. Much nicer back-in-the-day.

Yes, amateurs (which is fine, we all need to start somewhere) and those who are not interested in anyone outside their orbit. Very sad; but, I find a similar problem here in Montana ... folks don't reach out. Been here 12 long years. Had more interaction in Tulsa back-in-the-day. Maybe the culture has shifted as well. It's okay to sit behind a screen but not okay to hide behind one. Just my opinion.

Kåre Enga in Montana

Jun 14, 2020 at 1:56pm
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I remember odd snippets from KU. It was mostly a positive experience. High school or my first two years of university? A roller-coaster I got off and don't want to get back on. Yes, I should write about it but I'd rather do other things ... anything.

As for leaving WDC. Important to have everything backed up and anything important printed out. You could always just go 'basic' and that would allow you to peek in and comment when the urge hits you.

I barely keep in touch with anyone pre 2010. Sad. I could feel guilty but former friends aren't making much effort either. Nor are new ones. I feel very very isolated.

Kåre Enga in Montana

Jun 14, 2020 at 1:46pm
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I stay because I have nowhere else to go.

I've cut and run in my personal life ... mostly that didn't work out well.

When some writers here went to Open Salon they were very happy. But that closed and WDC is still here. Many drifted off to spacebook. They're still there, kinda... but that place is a mindfield.

I tried years ago to have better connections with local writers but I don't do 'groups' well and frankly ... they did not welcome me. But the group at the open group at the library persists ... if the library were open.

I'm thinking about moving back to the plains. Real people. Real relationships. Real boring.

I have to avoid drama in real life. Drama on-line is bad for me as well. My nerves can't take it.

But where to go?

May 23, 2020 at 9:43am

#984156

In which she blew a gasket over 4 tomatoes

Two things.

I've injured my ankle. I don't know how. I don't know what. But it hurts. Now, I can't run or do any physical activity at all really. I have to stay off it as much as possible. If it doesn't get better by Monday I'll go to the doctor but I'm praying it's nothing serious. I really need to run.

My morning and consequently my day was ruined by an old biddy at the market who blew her gasket when the produce vendor went to serve me before her. Such an insignificant thing to throw a tantrum about - and this was almost a full on tantrum for someone who was 70 years old. I don't want to hear any crap about her being high risk, the virus, respect your elders. Blah blah. If she is/was high risk, she shouldn't be out. The grocery stores deliver. If she wants respect she has to earn it, just like the rest of us and learn to ask nicely and not throw a tantrum. And she didn't say anything about the virus or being high risk anyway, she just wanted to go first because she wanted to be first.

Then an old fart behind me actually took her side and started saying that I had cut in front of him too (which I hadn't) and wasn't I just a bitch?

It didn't turn into a row, but it was just enough of a shit show to disturb me enough to ruin my day. All that for 4 tomatoes and a bunch of asparagus.

I know that seems weird, but I get very disturbed when people blow their gasket for such trivial things. It happens at work all the time. Lemon not sliced how you want it? Throw a tantrum. Wine served 1 degree too cold? (which is actually a good thing, but whatever) Throw a tantrum. The plates aren't the same as the last time you came here - not the meal the actual plates? Throw a tantrum.

Someone touched your clothes at the laundromat? Throw a tantrum.

It takes me back to the first time I was teased as a kindergartener, which I actually remember vividly to this day. That someone would lie about something and then tease me about it was so enormously shocking to me I think it's still traumatized me. I remember thinking even at 5 years old "Why would you behave this way?"

And I still think that. Why do people behave this way?

I'm not an angel. I lose my shit all the time. And maybe I'm remembering it wrong but I can't remember one time where I've lost my shit at someone and it wasn't warranted. Usually I lose my shit at myself, or at the situation, but never at someone for something so trivial. At least I think. Prove me wrong. Maybe I'm making it up but I can't think of any time it's happened.

Sometimes I lose my shit at Team Sommellerie at work when they do stupid crap that I then need to fix and yeah, it's kind of trivial stuff but I know the consequences are going to cause a drama and a scene so I think me losing my shit there is warranted. And there are plenty of times I don't lose my shit and could. Julien loses his shit for stupid crap all the time. All the time. The man needs to smoke more pot or have more sex or I don't know what but he needs to get it under control. And even then I kind of understand why he loses his shit. Our jobs are so stupidly stressful.

Anyway. Between this biddy blowing a gasket and my ankle I'm feeling pretty down and haven't accomplished much today. I should write or study as per usual. Or at least play a game to take my mind off of it, but instead I've been pouting at my desk for the last 3 hours. All this for 4 tomatoes and some asparagus.

You better believe I'm going to make one hell of a salad later.

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