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 |  Blog and other works of literary sense |
| Here is a collection of ruminations and whatnot. |
| I've revised my novel The Bridge. I made several changes to it. I sent the chapters to a few literary agencies in hopes that they'll accept it. I had a terrible problem with the pain in my left knee. It radiated from my thigh and almost into my leg I tried to take a nap and it wasn't working. Then I tried to change my position and it helped some. I slept a few hours. I asked my Dad before I went to take a nap to get me some pain meds and when I awoke he had the pain meds for me. I now have them and I think they're doing their job. I also took a half a pill of my meds for my depression so that I can get back on track. So far this is going well. I feared in the beginning when contemplating taking them again that it might resurrect that pain in my knee because the new meds that they changed me to had made this happen - the joint pain. So far it's not happened and I'm praying that the old meds will keep me from feeling unhappy. The day has been fair and the temperatures are in the 90s. I haven't been out of doors for several weeks now. Well, there was one time I went out for a short errand. It wasn't too bad out there. I do not wish to do it often. I still have a fear that I might be kidnapped. My place in the history of this world is what's keeping me from going out on my own. I am the daughter of the descendant of Alexandra of Russia and I'm also the daughter of Prince Philip of England. This places me in the singular position of being the REAL Queen of England. This is also why the current Queen and her people she employs (all over the world) are eager to make me sad and discouraged in everything that I do. It also has made me feel suicidal, these people have the means to get my mental health in jeopardy. The MI5 which is the Queen's agency has a way to make people feel 'out of it' and get into a bad end on their own, without anyone or anybody knowing about it - so they leave no evidence that anything has been done to somebody. That somebody merely gets 'ill' and those who are accomplice to them in other countries just carry the victim away to a hospital or some other cell or concentration camp. I know it sounds bizarre but that is what they have done to people. They are threatening this to me. They've already done the kidnapping of me from my childhood home in England and transported me to the Philippines. There I was programmed to "think" that I had a childhood there. They had a way to make my appearance more like an Asian person. I still can't figure out how they did that part. I think that they fed me a cocktail of bad things while I was unconscious (through intravenous feeding). Now I'm waiting for God to decide what to do with me and my life. I am not sure that I'm safe in the USA anywhere. I live in Indiana. The current administration is a friend of the Windsors (Queen Elizabeth's family). The administration is untrustworthy about me. I cannot ask them for help. I cannot ask for Asylum from England. The Queen has seemingly placed a block on my getting into the country - at least that is what I'm guessing. I do not have any means to travel out of the country. The Queen made it a point to make me lose all my savings, and have no job to have any income from. I'm retired and on a fixed income. My books are my source of money. I cannot get anyone to review it or even read the books. I am thinking that the Queen has her friends in the literary field and they do not wish to accept me as anyone who they might want to represent to a publishing company. I've tried several times in the last few years to send my manuscripts to get anyone there to read it. I did not get anything positive back. I will do more work to get more people to read my book, but that will only be a small percentage of what I could do if I had money to spend on promoting them. But I know that God is keeping me from feeling unhappy. I have confidence in Him. I know that this is a rite of passage for people who write books. I also know that being the real Queen of England is making me build my character and know how best to behave if England wants to have me as their Queen. I do not want them to reject me and make me suffer physically as the Queen wants them to do. If they feel that they cannot accept me, then I want them to tell the Queen to cease and desist making me her personal whipping girl. She's mad at her husband for committing an infidelity and she hates that somehow I survived her initial actions to deny me life. I ask you all to pray for me. Every day is a day where I could be made to be sad forever. I know that I have friends in many places who I do not recognize. I hope that one day these friends can form a union of prayer to God and push the bastards out of power. The countries who are going through hell are suffering hell because of what has been happening to me. I believe God is angry at these countries and so He is exacting His punishment. I am asking God to help those who are in harm's way so they will finally get the idea why things are the way they are, and change the course of history in their countries. Thank you. Mary (Ione Mountbatten) Faderan |
| I couldn't do anything so far today. I took a nap but even that was difficult because my knee and upper thigh were in pain and no position was good, it was all making it painful. My Dad bought me more pain meds. I'm hoping this knee pain will soon be healed. I'm up now so I can at least get something to snack on. I could do something if my knee pain will subside. All I can do is try. |
| My knee is causing me pain this morning. I am trying to keep it from bothering me by taking pain meds. I can't stand the pain and it happens more when I'm in bed and it's terrible. I have to do some more moving around so that the pain doesn't stay. I'm thinking of making something that's a bit more involved than cooking a frozen meal. I have some thoughts of making or baking something. Like I could make bread in the breadmachine. Or pancakes. Or even a nice orange cake. I made some a while ago. I can't remember where I kept the recipe however. So that will put me in a hunt for the recipe book. It could be kept in a cupboard or some other shelf. I'm also thinking of writing more of my contacts a newsletter about my work. I was so depressed to see how few people had been reading or buying my books. So I sent an email to my relatives and former coworkers to buy my books. I don't know if they will. But I'm running out of ideas. I am not planning on sitting too long at my computer. I might not even do much writing on my novel. I have a few struggles about the plot. I do not want to do more on it until I'm convinced that it is something that is going to make sense or that it will be good enough to read. Many of my fiction novels aren't all pure romance and so there might be some struggles to keep to a romantic novel theme. In my mind, I mean. |
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