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** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** I'd kept a paper journal for years, so I thought I'd try this out and see how it works. I must say, I'm rather liking it!! Here's some background stuff. I'm in my 40's, doing the single mom thing with a 10 yo son. My son has ADHD, ODD and was also diagnosed with high functioning autism. He can be a challenge, but he can also be pure joy. This is my safe place. I come here to vent my frustrations, celebrate my victories, share a recipe or two and make new friends. I like it here. I hope you do too. Thanks for stopping by, Curls |
| Just got in from an out of town meeting. I'm tired. I need to write a really long blog, but I just don't have it in me to do it tonite....stay tuned..... |
| Well, I started this, got half way through it and hit the wrong key and lost it. It was going to be a really long entry. I'm already upset, and this just pissed me off even more. I'm too tired to go back and retype it all. I'll do it later when I'm calmer. |
| I was at the surgeon's office today. The hardware in my arm is still loosening, and the bone is not healing right. I will need to have a bone graft done using cadaver material and have the hardware replaced. They are looking at the 23rd of February, but will need to confirm that date with the other surgeon who will need to be there to assist my surgeon with it. I talked to Mom & Dad about it. They will see what they can do on their end to have Mom drive down to be with Joe and I. I will be calling them tomorrow once I hear the date and time has been confirmed. Mom did ask that I come up with a "plan B" in case she is not able to come down. I will be talking to my neighbor lady to see what her schedule is like, and maybe together, with my church family, we can all work as a team to make sure the Joseph's schedule and his needs are met with as little disruption to him as possible. I can pretty much fend for myself, but I've got to make sure Joseph is taken care of. This surgery will require I take a couple more weeks off work. I have exhausted my leave time, so this will be leave without pay. Also, if Mom is able to come down now to be with me, instead of during Joseph's spring break from school, I will need to work out child care arrangements for that week with his dad, which will be a new challenge in and of itself. Joseph also has a costly dental procedure coming up in April that I will need to find a way to manage as well. I guess it's pretty obvious that I've got more on my plate than I can say grace over right now. I'm counting on all of you, as part of my support system, to pray and love me through this. I'll feel better once I get the date and time confirmed so I can begin making plans. I tried to go into work, but just can't get focused, so I gave up and came home. Everything just feels so chaotic right now. The words to that old song, Peace in the Valley, seem quite appropriate today. My quote for today is: You can judge a man by whether he will ask for a light load or a strong back. |
| Ok, so I didn't blog yesterday...so spank me. I just had fun with Joe, did yard work, etc. Not a whole lot. Tomorrow am, I go to the surgeon to see if he's gonna have to operate on my arm again. I don't want another OR date, but if I have to, I have to. It sure beats suffering. Wednesday pm, I head out of town for an overnight to attend a business meeting on Thursday, and will drive home after the meeting. I may end up missing another day or two this week as well. And so it goes, life happens. My quote today is: We are not creatures of circumstance. We are creators of circumstance. |
| Happy Friday Everyone! This is a wonderful, happy day! I'm most happy because Nascar season is beginning tonite with the Bud Shootout. I've truly missed getting my Nascar fix. This morning was better with Joe. I learned something, too. Instead of getting up at my usual time, I got up 15 minutes earlier. I gave him those additional 15 minutes to ease him into the day. His clock radio had gone on 15 minutes prior, so he was getting an idea that morning had come. I opened his door, and said good morning to him. I turned on CNN, and made my coffee. The sound of the tv, light from the kitchen and smell of coffee further triggered his mind to begin the waking up process. Then, I went to his room again told him I was turning his light on to help him wake up. 5 minutes after that, I went back to him and sat on his bed, and rubbed his back and legs a little. When he first wakes up, he's quite angry, and his words are hateful. As he wakes up more, the giggles and hugs start. I don't know what makes him wake up so mean at first. I guess that's just how he's wired. He tried to give me some grief about wanting me to dress him. He does this alot. He tries this "I'm helpless" scheme to get me to do stuff he's well and able to do, but just doesn't want to. Anyone who deals with him on a regular basis, understands that this is just a veil, and to wait him out, and he'll eventually do it himself once he sees it's not going to be done for him. I'm thinking the additional 15 minutes of wake up time was helpful and I'll try it more to see how it works. I broke the fish tank down again last night and rebuilt it with new gravel, put anti- ick and fungus drops in tank, hooked up the tank heater, and this morning the water was still quite clear! It's the best it's been looking in a long long time. Hopefully it will stay that way. I'm getting quite tired of messin with it. All in all, it's been a good day. My quote for today is: The ability to say "no" is perhaps the greatest gift a parent has. |
| This am started with another battle with Joe. Seems whatever clothes I pick out for him to wear, he doesn't want. Yes, he is unable of picking out his own clothes. After warming his backside, and giving him time to calm down, we discussed this. The deal is, if he wants to pick out his own clothes, he has to do it the night before. If he doesn't, then whatever I pick out, he will wear with no argument, or he will lose 1 full week of tv and ps2. I think I have his attention now. My aquarium is really being a pain in the butt. Terror was dead this am. I decided I would once again restart the tank, but this time I will take out the colored marble looking gems I have in the bottom and replace with brand spanking new gravel. I also bought some ick and fungus medicine, and a small tank heater. Who'da thought in Florida I'd need a tank heater? I'm just not taking any more chances. So, here's another $50 I've put into the tank. This had BETTER work. I'm getting tired of putting so much time and money into it. I guess it's still cheaper than a cat or a dog's vet bills, so I should just be thankful. Since I'm allergic to 4 legged animals, the aquarium's all I got in the line of pets. My quote for today is: Friends are like bras: close to your heart and there for support. Take care my friends, Curls |
| I just can't believe it. The donkey picked up Joe so I was able to get to work at 11:30 today. I am shocked. I figured when he'd said he'd call me back, that I wasn't gonna hear from him, that it was his passive aggressive way of saying no. Oh well, I'll take my blessings where I get them. |
| I'm home today....for now. Joe's got the runs bigtime. No vomiting or belly pain, thank God. He just can't get out of the john. I called the donkey to see if he can split the day with me so I can at least work 1/2 a day. He told he he'd have to call me back. I guess he's looking for a reason to tell me he can't. I'm so glad I have an understanding boss. She knows I'm a Mom before I'm an employee. There's just no way I can send Joe to school like this. I just hate missing work so much. I may check to see if I can go in over the weekend to make up some time so I don't exhaust all my leave again this month and have to go on leave without pay. It just figures, that now I've finally got my "groove" back, that Joe gets sick. Oh well. I guess I can finish up some household chores while I'm here. My aquarium has become a death chamber. I spent $40 on fish last weekend, and of the 9 fish I bought, only 3 remain. I also lost both big silver dollars. I've got another fish we named Terror (because he likes to mess with the other fish) who looks like he's not doing well either. I'm just not sure what to do. I've totally broke the tank down 3 times now, washed the marbles, etc. Haven't gotten it figured out yet. Guess I'll have to get a book from the library to see what else it could be. I don't really have the time or tolerance to take a water sample into town to the fish store to get it tested. I'm afraid they'll see it as an opportunity to get more $$ out of me and load me up with a bunch of stuff I don't really need. It's a shame we only have one fish store in town now. OK, that's about all I have right now. My quote for today is: A woman without a man is like a fish without a bicycle. Thanks for coming by, Curls |
| I don't have anything of substance to say today. My quote for today is: It's better to be thought of as a fool than to open your mouth and remove all doubt. Peace out, Curls |
| Why, oh why do people have such a high opinion of their memories??? My work requires I spent a lot on time on the phone. Numerous times each day, I'll call for someone and am told that they are not available and would I like to leave a message.....so I say yes, and give my name and place of employment and begin my phone number...only to be told...oh, hold on, let me get a pencil and write this down....ARRRGH!!!!! Seems to me, if they knew they were taking a message, they would have been prepared to write it down. Then, after waiting for what seems like forever for them to scramble to get a writing utensil and paper, I give them the message again. Invariably, they f*ck up the phone #....ARRRGH #2!!!! Once again, it seems to me that if they were taking a message, they'd take great caution (clean the sh*t out of their ears) to clearly write down the information correctly. Furthermore, if this only happened once in a while, say, when I call a person's residence, I'd be more understanding, but to have it happen when I call places of business multiple times a day, five days a week, it is down right aggrivating. Doesn't competence mean anything anymore? Holy moly....I just realized that I sound like Lou Dobbs on CNN........ok....I'm done ranting for now. |
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