2 week vacation with a friend? They plan. You just go along for the ride!
My trip to England years ago was like that. The trips I plan on my own were anxiety producing. The only up side was that moving around didn't leave much time for depression.
In your opinion, what is the blockage to receiving timely psych appointments? I remember one that didn't help. I did have a good therapist and counselor though.
It's sometimes easier to get meds in other countries where pharmacists have more leeway. Psych vacation for mental health?
Michigan has beaches galore and lots of water. I tell Floridians and Arizonans that the future is Michigan, a blessed fertile land that doesn't turn to dust, need a/c 6 months of the year, and isn't slowly sinking into the sea.
And you have cherries!
I grew up in the Grey Lakes (not a misspelling). I considered May to be spring. March was mud, April too chill.
I've threatened to move to Eastern Montana for the sunshine; but, moving...
A vacation may be a good idea. When can you get away for a week or two? And where would you go in your dreams? (reality usually means a compromise)
For others this is the first day of spring; but, for me, it's the first day of a new year. I face similar questions. Will I pick up the shards of a broken life or will I allow archeologists to ponder them centuries from now.
In any case going back isn't an option. The places may still exist and even some people may still be there; but, I've changed.
In the middle of my mind is a tragic truth. I am not as innocent as I pretend to be. I am not without faults. I have lived through so many of them.
Only the truth is I have something to hide. I hide the truth of my unending love for him. I try so hard to ignore it. I fill up my days with activities and my nights with mindless nonsense. All to escape the reality of a haunting love that scares the shit out of me.
It's a chemistry connection. It's beyond my control and it happened when my heart wasn't even aware.
It happened over 4 years ago.
It is happening again right now.
This time is is gone out of State. He tells me he will be back in two weeks and everything will be different. I am not sure I can believe him.
Oh I know he will be back but will he be different? Is he honestly ready for me? Is he ready to take this to a place that only real adults travel? Is he ready to be whom I want him to be?
Time is my best friend at the moment. I can take this and dream.
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