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| While my dogs are vying for my attention (as they do frequently during the day) I’m thinking of how the day has gone so far. I got up and went through some negativity but I was able to keep it at bay. Then I decided it was a good day to get the royalty money out of the bank for a short grocery trip. I only got paid 27.81 for royalties but that amount, well, 20 of it, got used up for groceries to tide us over till Stepdad gets his pension check next month. I’m sure that those who bought my books for whatever period of time the check covered should be happy and given Blessings of Goodness for helping us fortuitously this month. I wasn’t sure whether we might be able to get through the month without giving up a meal or two, or getting low on dog and cat food. The cat food seems to be ok but the dogs are eager to eat almost all the time these days. So the dog food is going at a rate that I’m rather worried about. However, I’ll be keeping a close watch over the dog kibble and since I give them some table food, they should be ok with things. I did a bit of crocheting too - I felt bored with social media. I think it’s fine to be on social media but I think that I haven’t a lot to follow and there’s just not a lot to appreciate on FB. Twitter is more interesting but the election is taking a lot of space and it’s getting too much for me. I can’t go on those two for too long because it causes me stress. All that stuff, leaping out of the screen at me, bringing unwelcome statistics, data and photos - making me overwhelmed. I’m not as excited to know who is leading where maybe but if I learned about it on Twitter then all the thoughts I have leap to different things that cause my mind a stress. I’d rather appreciate good things - nature, flight of airplanes (my newest followed Tweetum) and clothes - fashion, that sort of thing. Stuff that a girl likes to follow - and I might have to prune my list of people followed so I don’t always get bad news from the moment I get on Twitter. |
| I'm going out on a limb here and post my business websites - I don't know what Writing dot com is thinking about it but if they wish me to remove this blog post I will. I'm in need to extra income and so I've joined three businesses to be their independent consultant. Here are my websites with them and I invite you to shop there and help me earn a decent living. My book royalties are not as great as I had hoped, and I now it's because of being new to the game of writing books. https://shop.lulareobless.com/050678 - clothing store marykay.com/MFaderan - cosmetics and skin care maryfaderan.norwex.biz - intending to help reduce the world of chemicals to create a cleaner Earth. The products we sell are good for the house, cleaning and keeping the body healthy. Thank you for your support. Mary |
| After a few days of work, there are a few more chapters to KICK than before. |
| Last night I wrote another scene for KICK, the title of the Loveable Resident Sequel. I wrote a scene with Mike Oates at the end of his tether. His wife Lauren left to go see her father, Jonathan Moore, leaving Mike alone. Mike went through a crisis and almost did himself in. I decided to put a pause in his suicidal intent and make him live for another day. My Muse and I had a problem with it and my Muse wanted to end Mike's life right there. I replied that I wanted to prolong his existence because the story would end too soon. Lauren's story might develop if Mike's existence ended and I wasn't sure that the story would have any sense because Mike was the protagonist and Lauren's character was something that was secondary to Mike's. I am torn about this scene and don't know whether I want to go on with the Sequel. I do not like MIke Oates' character nor do I feel anything for Lauren's. I'm a writer who wishes to like my characters and I want them to do well enough to have a satisfying story in the end where the readers will say, That's ok. So I'm pausing writing this story until my Muse and I come to an agreement about what Mike's life will end up as. It's hard to write a story about a psychopath. I am not sure that I'm in the right mood to write this story, and I think I've had several difficulties with writing anyway. Writing is a tender business, something that comes from one's imagination. I might be better disposed to write some other story that I'm developing even now as i write this blog post. The thoughts that might be happy with my other book aren't sympathetic with my writing the Sequel. It's seemingly more attractive to those in my audience of thoughts to write about something more positive than writing about a man who's got no redeeming qualities. I'm not someone like Truman Capote who wrote that book that was about some assassin. I might have to beef up myself to write more on KICK. I don't know what I will do about it. More time is needed, for sure, to go on with KICK. I don't know what else to do about it at the present time. I'll keep you posted. M. |
| Those who are at a crossroads in their career should ask a life coach about how best to navigate their worklife and find a way through the jungle that is your current workplace. I consulted a life coach at a reputable website which was where I was a member of, and the sessions were decent - three sessions and a half hour each. The life coach had good insight into a specific issue I had with a supervisor and told me that I needed to veil our convos. She said that when this supervisor was giving me a hard time, to draw a veil between us, to give this woman a detached connection from me. So that nothing she really said would matter, nor affect me as a human being, as a person of integrity. There's more to life than a job. Jobs come and go. When you're respected and valued, then you need to become engaged and help in the mission of that workplace. When they start ignoring your suggestions, it's time to find another place or leave and sit in contemplation to decide Now that the pandemic is shutting people down in their jobs, furloughing them, it's the time to sit back, have a cig or a glass of wine, and start to go through what it is that is really the thing you want out of the rest of your life. Examine every facet of your life. It might be useful to talk to people but I've found that people you know have their own agenda about you as a part of their lives. These people are the ones who could have been trashtalking about you behind your back. Seek an outside source, EAP or some other org to help. |
| Hi All, I'm resuming my novel - The Sequel to The Loveable Resident - titled KICK. I am getting warmed up with the story of Mike Oates and his wife Lauren. I am finding that there's a story about them after their lives in the first of the series of the Loveable Resident. I am particularly interested in the characters that I have introduced in the first book. They are like old friends who I haven't had a chance to develop. I think that series are a good way to get more interesting plotlines and this novel is well on its way. But other things get in the way and that's alright. I think noodling on the story takes time. I've been busy with other projects that have taken my time. I've also been through some lows. I've been laid low by negative thoughts and these are gremlins that haunt me every day. Today is no different. I have to plug away at the life I've been given. It's not a bad life, despite the negativity that I get from every where and every one who don't like me for some reason. I think that I'm a good person, and I give to charity, and pay my taxes. I earn some money from my work so it's not like I'm just sitting here like some retirees who don't get much done. I don't think retirement should stop anyone from doing good work. We ought to have a plan B for a retired life. Plan A has gone out the window, haha. This pandemic is a challenge, for sure. We all need to look into our own thoughts and see what we need to discard and keep. You need to keep up with the news of the day. You have to keep up with looking decent. No more overgrown beards, or long hair that's been keeping you looking sad. I have been cutting my own hair, haha. One time my stepfather asked me if I could trim his hair. It wasn't that bad. All those salon visits I've made have given me a way to cut hair decently. We all have to pull our strength. We need to get an optimistic mood as much as we can and if we're in some pain, there's always some pain meds to take. Don't be shy with taking them if you're in pain. Old age is a thing that we have to deal with but we can't allow ourselves to be old in our thoughts, or in our own bodies. We must try to be spry and find activities that will keep our bodies from deteriorating. We can't sit in a chair all day and let those gremlins settle in our bones. Let's try to get out of our chairs every so often and do some chore or have a way to do something that's going to focus our minds. Wandering minds are a bad thing. We should try to do reading, a book or magazine. I think taking up a hobby will help. I knit and crochet and I've finished several projects that way. So I hope that today you can start on your way to being the person you want to be. |
| Today is a good morning to blog away. The rains have fallen and dripped outside my window all night. The dripping seemed to real to me, as though one was knocking on my window pane but that anxious feeling left and I dismissed before it did. I wanted to keep up with things but I kept getting the thought it was best to go back to sleep. I had this worry about the elections this year. First, do I vote and how much time will it take me to vote this year? They had pictures of people waiting for hours to vote in other places. I feared for my dogs who go with me everywhere. What will happen to them if they waited for me to vote in the car where the weather might be too cold or too hot. I also worried about who I would vote for - Biden or Jorgensen? If I voted for a Democrat those who hate me who are GOP voters will make my life miserable after voting. if I voted for Jorgensen will the Democrats hate me for voting for an obvious Trump vote? That's what they say, if I voted for an independent voter. Some thought tells me I should write in a vote for some long ago politician. I do not know who would that be. I don't want to vote for some old pol. I had this thought that those who hate me will blame me again for who I voted for or who I voted against. I cannot vote for Trump, obviously. Trump is not a good person in my opinion. He fooled everyone and they voted for him last time and now we all are going through Hell with him at the helm. He doesn't respect anyone. He always blames the others for what is going on in the country. I cannot vote for someone like him. I confess I voted for him because I hated Hillary. She represented someone who would kill fetuses, babies, in the womb and that was the big thing everyone thought about in those election years. But when I voted against her I got killed in my workplace in my life and my job suffered greatly. Hillary is someone who the literati like a lot and I couldn't get anyone to publish my books. Even now these people are hating my being a publisher of my books. I can't get my books sold on Amazon. It's defeating me and I do not wish to vote for this reason. I rather be one of those many who do not wish to proclaim who they voted for even in their minds. So I do not want to vote this year. Or any year ever. I am told that being Queen of England I cannot vote anyway. Even though I'm a citizen of the USA. I'm still the Queen. The citizenship can be rectified when England is ready for me to take over the monarchy. I still have problems dealing with becoming the Queen of England. Thoughts are not as eager to discsuss with me what might happen. Let's see. What might happen is that England will be happier and I'll be a good Queen. I love people of different nationalities. I appreciate what they have to offer, in food especially. I love curry and I love eggrolls and I love dogs and all kinds of ordinary people. These are the people that populate every nation. I want people to know that I want peace in the world. I love God and God loves me. That is all. |
| I just have to say that writing can be the most frustrating act I've ever done. While writing my novel, I get stumped for words, all of a sudden, but then these ghouls come up with the worst words to write instead of the right word I'm looking for. These ghouls are the hackers of my life, those who are eager to write in my stead and be the one who'll carry it all off and publish it somewhere in the dark, nether world of the literary black market. But they can't do it because my Spirit is strong. Also, even if they succeeded in hacking one of my stories, and sold it to some more famous author (who's paying them scads of money for the book I've written) that author won't be able to sell it to his publisher because publishers know better. They are aware of my books being written and it will not sound like that author's voice and it will be totally useless. All that money these thieving authors are paying will go to naught. |
| I'm finally at the evening hours on a Friday. I do not have an inkling what will happen to me tomorrow or on Bloody Sunday. I will be with God all the time and He has been keeping me safe always. I do not have an agenda what I need to do. I've been looking through my social media feed. Nothing jumpsout at me. It's all of a piece. No real inclination to do much with what I've seen. I slept a bit more than I should have. I missed my therapist call. This is the third call in months. I hope that the next call I can remember to be around the phone when it rings. I'm alternately feeling ok and sleepy. I will have to do what I need to get some rest. And refreshment or healing. I think that this will help more than anything. The bank has replied and they want me to call this number to get my consumer report which means that if the bank sees no early warning remarks about me that this will allow me to continue as their depositor. Now I'm only allowed to go there a physically transact business. I have other banks, however so if this bank goes awry then I will rely on the other banks so carry the financial load that I will receive. I think I will soon be given a break. This is my optimism and I will be happier because of it. That Queen is no longer problematic. If she's still able to put a foot infront of the other then she might see to her own life and find a way to her own place where she can be at peace and forget about the sins her husband have piled upon her. I do not get any thoughts from him now. I think he's rather not interested nor is he caring about anything as he's quite old and any sad thoughts would put him over the edge. My mother the one who bore me isn't either. She's old and rather wants nothing to do with trying to help someone she's already buried a long time ago in Lancashire, England. I'm responsible for looking forward to having a job that can be something to tide me through the future years. I have to look to God for help in that regard. |
| Call me the machine whisperer. At least, the washing machine. It's got several knobs and settings. Once in a while it stops in its tracks, and it is a mystery why that happens. It drives my Dad up the wall. Then it happened to me. I looked at it and fiddled with the knob and then I pulled it out again and the thing came to life. So today my Dad had a wash to do and it was obvious he wasn't trusting the thing. He was going to sit in front of it to see whether it would be ok enough to keep working. I suggested he do nothing and leave it alone. So he did. Then it stopped. I went to it and got it going again. Just now he looked into it and it had stopped. So he fiddled with it and it started up again. I guess we're both machine whisperers. Just something that we have to live with in our rickety old place. |
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